Overloaded

Should I even be complaining? Doubt so, at least I have work to do. Haha!! But still I prefered the time around Feburary, not so packed and not so rushed for time. Either way, hehe.

So right now I'm sitting here in my office and guess what? I'm the only one here, not really sure why though. My manager called me this morning asking where I was, told him where I was at and that I'd be coming down here, came and there was no one. Kind of cool though. Never really was able to be here alone from the get-go, this is cool. Can blast music and what not, hehe!!

Kk, I better be getting back to my excel spreadsheet so I can head back to TTSH before lunchtime or at least during lunch. =D Tata!!

Migrain

Just yesterday I was having this super painful migrain headache that just drained me fulling and worst was i couldn't really enjoy the movie! sigh!! It was a great movie though, 300. Really love the effects of blood splatter and all that. Superb!! Great show and the storyline of how anything can be done with passion adn determination. Numbers are irrelevant, it's all about the will and passion and love for one's country and people!!

Anyways, nothing much to type just wanted to chat on MSN a little and see how Lesley was, thought I'd enter a short post about the movie but yeah migrain's coming back so, tata!! Next entry I'll elaborate.

Big Burden

Workload for March is catching up with me and I am now starting to feel it; either way I still enjoy what I do and at least had a call from a friend of mine which allowed me a few moments of a good needed laugh. Oh and I'm still curious as to why the lone just got cut, I'm going to guess that your battery went flat but yeah let me know!!

Tomorrow have to be at office early, get this feeling that my manager is starting to wonder why I'm never at the office anymore, literally it's as though I'm camping out at TTSH. Sigh. I'm not complaining though. I kind of like that room, it's a little cosy once you get use to it and believe you me if anyone is comfortable there it would be me!! I'm like forever in that room. So tomorrow there's commissioning, handled by my colleague and then the PM which is going to be done by me at the same time chasing after some of them for my pumps and then chasing them to sign service reports. Haha!! It's always fun to chase for my special "autograph session" because it's one report per pump!! Lolx!! Photocopying is the killer though. Good thing my office is comfy and cosy and nice ambience to work in. If not think I'd go insane!!

Right now just going to coast till this sunday, finally get to meet Shuxin after like how long?! Oh and my special day is coming!! Haha!! can't wait, only bad part is I'm working on that day but than again it's not really that bad cause I have this feeling that I just might enjoy going to work that day!! But I need to be at two places that day, office and TTSH BME!! So want to have lunch with all those guys on that day, will definetly have more fun!! No offence to my colleagues they're great people but BME even more fun cause I've known them longer and well yeah....but I really do wish to get to know all my colleagues and develope bonds of friendship with them and my clients!! Meaning all the other BMEs out there and not just TTSH's.

Right now listening to Lifehouse Family, great band love all their songs!! Unfortunately i need to shut-down and get my butt to bed, need to be at office by 9am, which means I have to leave my house at 7am to reach just nice on time, my office is way too far from my place. Just imagine I travel to Pasir Panjang everyday from the nortnern tip of Singapore!!! North to South literally!! but I'm near Vivo so can't really complain too much, just the travelling kills me, I'm not a traveling kind of person, I prefer nearby things. Me lazy, haha i know!!

kk Gdnite people!!! =D

New Look

Not really sure why I decided to change my blog's layout, just was going through stuff and then came across this file and i guess i just liked the name; Simple Colors. Sounds nice huh? lolx! Unfortunately, I find this color scheme too light and the colors blend way to easily, it's kind of hard to really view and see the difference. But the background color is really nice so I have decided to keep it for a while. Prefer these light colors; not white, just light colors rather than the black that i had. Too dark, too gloomy.

Now, on a lighter note, things at office seem to be going well. Alot of new things going on, alot of changes too; things should turn out for the better!! I hope!! Hmm, workload as increased but i think that I've handled it pretty well so far. but still needed Andy to come down and help me. Repairs ended up being my killer!! Sigh. Guess I got so caught up in my PM that i just couldn't get my repairs done on time. Good thing he's pretty free this month to help me out. =D

Other then that, I've been having this, new addiction?? If you could call it that..lolx!! with Korean dramas. haha!! So far I have seen (and own), Lovers in Paris, My Girl and most recently watched (just an hour ago) Full House. My next aim to to get the DVD Princess Hour, I hear that it's really good! Joy has the DVD so I might borrow from her first if I like it then I'm so going to buy it!! haha!! There's this one TS shop at Square 2 over at Novena next to TTSH and they're having this sale cause of opening or something like that. Prices very reasonable!!! I sound like JL hahaha!!!!!

Kk bedtime!!! Gdnite people!! =D

=.=

Nothing much to post...today was a very eventful day if i should say so myself!! had a great laugh today while in A&E repairing a pump. lolx!! if you wanna know more please IM me and I'll tell you about it!! shy and JL you guys will love this and laugh your heads off as well!! =D seriously!!

lately been feeling really down, not sure why. i mean its not like I'm depressed or anything just really down and i myself don't know why. maybe because of further studies maybe because of work or family....i have no clue..sigh...this sux big time!!

probably should be getting to bed but i don't exactly feel sleepy but tomorrow is another day full of PM and running around to find people...still trying to figure out a solution for ED pumps. i know i need to get the list of S/N's first but still need a plan after that!! see how it goes, see whether this boon kwang will call me or I'll have to call him. the name sounds so familiar, think I've met him during attachment just don't remember the face. apparently Michael's face comes to mind, hahahas!!!! not good!! lolx!! =p

been listening to Nelly Furtardo's songs a lot recently, especially All Good Things Come To An End and Say It Right. not very helpful to the mood thing i got going but i find the lyrics very meaningful...just not sure how....well not in their literal context of course...that subliminal message that's being sent out. it's hitting my conscience pretty hard...sigh...nevermind please don't get that and i might be a happier person!

I need sleep and a whole lot of other stuff, need to figure out why, first of all I'm so down then the rest can be dealt with...either that or it'll just solve itself, that would make me even happier!! haha!! kk I'm off for now, it's bedtime!!

WHY DO ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END........!!!

=D

Have no idea what to type or say, nothing really going through my head but this song....

Rascal Flatts - My Wish

i hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow

and each road lead you to where you wanna go

and if your faced with a choice and you have to choose

i hope you choose the one that means the most to you

and if one door opens to another door closed

i hope you keep on walking till you find the window

if its cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile

but more than anything, more than anything

my wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it too

your dreams stay big, your worry stays small

you never need a care more than you can hold

and while you're out there getting where you're getting to

i hope you know somebody loves you,and wants the same things too

yeah this, is my wish

i hope you never look back but you never forget

all the ones who love you and the place you live

i hope you always forgive and you never regret

and you help somebody every chance you get

oh you find God's grace in every mistake, and always give more than you take

but more then anything, yeah more then anything

my wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to

your dreams stay big, your worry stays small

you never need a care more then you can hold

and while you're out there getting to where you're getting to

i hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too

yeah this, is my wish.......(x2)

i hope you know somebody loves you, may all your dreams come true....

Judgement Day

Nothing special about this post just thought of talking about the one thing that i dreaded for the longest time, well actually it wasn't that long of a time but because it was so precious to me and vital a day just felt like eternity. anywaz, it's been three years since judgment day, three years ago this very day 22.02.03 that was a good day for me, or shall i say evening. and right now its a good one too. i mean yeah its not exactly ideal and all but it's as good as it can get for the moment.

this just might be back-dated to i have no idea what day, but i just put in the title then and am writing this now. haha!! hope that made sense to you people. still wonder if anyone really reads this, doubt it so yeah whatever! =D

now back to my judgement day! it was alwaz so passive the way it was written and expressed but when i read back on it and really start to ponder i realize how deep it was, how much i longed for the day and yet ironically how much i was scared and didn't ever want the day to come. scared and frightened i was, rejection, betrayal, mocking...everything....just scared and fearful of it all. am i still? no! not at all...i've past that day and have now arrived at the future of that day and i am glad that i went through it because the grass is so much more greener on this side!! =p it's a combination!!! haha!! i LOVE the moon!!! my moon....judgement is over and believe me after that one anything else that's thrown at me is much, excuse me, so much easier to handle! i can face anything i can do anything i can be anyone!! i can have it all!! the world and beyond...no limitations for anything, it's like i own the world!! and so much more!! its a great feeling and to know that it went the way i wanted it too and everything! i didn't expect that but then how many of us really are confident with high self-esteem? not many...especially not me! honestly, i felt like my question was going to be probed at...i felt like it would have been laughed at and mocked...i felt like it would have suffered from ridicule and so much more...but it didn't; i thought it did at first but then when my head cleared and i read through everything again i realized that my prayers were answered and i felt like it was just meant to be such....it was suppose to be that way....messed up but still true to the answer i seeked and desired...i got it!!! i got it and am still receiving...more and more everyday...and i am so thankful!! so very thankful to everyone and anyone who played a part in it and well yeah..thanks!! thank you for everything!! for the right answer, the treatment, the ease, the peace just everything...perfect timing..perfect beautiful timing.....couldn't have asked for it any better and i thank God for it....everything was perfect just like His plan for me..perfectly beautiful!!! =D

now it's bedtime and i needa get some sleep so im not late for work tomorrow...sigh cleaning 6D TTSH....needa pack and get outta there before renovations start....cyaz!! gdnite!

A Cold Heart

Nope it's not that i'm in a bad mood or heartbroken or anything, it's just this new book i'm reading; this is the title! i'll tell you this though, it's one confusing book. the plot is good, real good but the lead characters and storyline changes with the characters and it's confusing because there are different characters solving different cases only later in the book do they merge into one case, one Cold Case (another good show btw).

i mean i have nothing against change in lead characters, just don't write it as "I" and then i'm left to continue reading confusing which "I" it is. sometimes the chapters continue with the same character and others change and it's not clearly defined but still overall a good book. haha!! i guarantee that you would be confused reading it as well, but still a good book!

actaully i did want to type something here yesterday but i forgot what it was...and now i remember but it's suppose to be a entry on its own and not combined with others. nevermind i'll just create it later then save it as a draft first, otherwise i just might forget it again.

shy is leaving for aussie soon, so that's one less friend to have around. and speaking of friends i think and feel as though i have already lost one. it's like wow! made a friend pretty close very fast then all of a sudden it's like nothing! just like that a friend is gone...lost...it's like they just fell off the face of earth, sigh! really did like that friend, a good friend that you can just be yourself with and tell everything, joke and laugh and really enjoy yourself, but oh well at least i still have my old friends, and my new ones from office!

so far i've made friends with andy my direct colleague and then there's all those temp and contract staff that are also my friends, din, jackson, yani! so fun to hang out with yani last friday, had fun eating KFC and talking at chinatown (the wrong place to be at this time of the year) haha but thomas was going there so we decided to get a lift from him to there and eat. lolx!!

kk i need to be getting to bed and sleep, this weekend has been pretty packed for me so not much rest got up early for both days and slept late both days. can't keep doing this because i don't want to be late for work too often. so off to bed i go!! Gdnite people...whoever really reads this..lolx!!! =D

At Office

Just sitting here in the office right now and well there's no one here besides jackson and he's in the workshop so yeah, no one's here with me. im bored outta my mind!! been trying to clear out my filing and get it done before too late, not sure when the audit will be and sure don't wanna fail that! hmm..should probably write about my trip to Perth, believe you me there's a whole lot to write about, from the full of turbulence flight going there, the river cruise dinner (beautiful view, spectacular!!) , the vineyard, shopping area and lastly the yatch sailing!! oh the atch sailing was my favorite and i was pretty good at steering the yatch, it was only 36'. but still haha!! the view there was fantastic!! skipper was really cute, i almost fell out of the yatch and uhm there were alot of box jellyfish in the water, we came in second last for the race but heck it was overall fun!! first time i had corona too. =D didn't like it that much but it wasn't that bad..still prefer breezers. haha!!!

well it's hard to write about the trip, it's more of the experience then anything else, you just had to have been there. maybe i'll try to upload pictures, but till then i'm off to get my little behind home for dinner!!! =p

2007

Hmm?? been so long since i've last written anything here and im so tempted to just type in the lyrics to Hinder's song By the Way. bought the Cd because of their hit Lips of an Angel then discovered that i love almost every song on this album. haha!! the lyrics just seem to describe me right now so well, where im at in life, how i feel; especially the bridge and chorus. seems like a depressing song but actaully its not! to me that is, im morbid..maybe? haha!! doubt it just a little crazy and psychotic at times. but still!

nothing much been going on, Christmas was fun, enjoyed caroling but not the falling ill part. was like on MC for the past one week and tomorrow is like my first day back from MCs. lolx!! that's pretty bad i know. anyways, New Year's was alright, not that greatest had better but then again being in pain doesn't make anything better. fingers still sore and a little charred but now its more of a white blister rather than the black is was! oh did i mention that i burnt myself by grabbing the metal part of the soldering iron while tryin' to repair a pump? guess not.

actually its a funny story so let me tell it then im off to bed. it goes like this....

between the 23rd and 24th Dec: went to church for the christmas variety program and then went home to prepare for the carolers, after the carolers came and broke a picture of the Praying Hands, lolx! after that i was suppose to follow in the bus to guide them to uncle matthew's place, so all of us followed haha!! but then after that i was fun and dino was there and then everyone (aunty mary, soma...and so on) asked us to continue and well i wanted to so we did! =D man it was fun but long hours..whole night!! after the last house on our way back to church i so knocked out in the bus, didn't even hear uncle alex blow the whistle for prayer..haha!! after that we came home and slept a little then i went out with shuxin to buy some totally last minute gifts!!

came home and then everyone came over and we opened christmas at our place, by the end of the day i was shot and wasn't feeling to well so i took a nap and at midnight was woken to toast in christmas and say a prayer. then it was bedtime!! the next day which was christmas day ijust felt so lousy...so mom took my temperature and it was high so she gave me meds and i went back to sleep then we all went over to uncle matthew's for streamboat but i just felt worse and worse. that night was up with a blocked/running nose (don't ask it was tormenting one nostril blocked the other running non-stop) sigh. so 26th was suppose to be back to work but i messaged in that i was having a fever so yeah was getting MC, slept in a little then went to the doctor's and yeah was sick, got 2days MC for it. major sigh!!

this is the best part!! on thursday i went back to work and had a warranty pump to repair for my "fav" engineer!! lolx!! so was doing that i still wasn't feeling well, felt real giddy. anywaz, i was soldering and thought of swapping hands cause my left hand is more nimble then my right, obviously! so i hekd the wires with my left and went to reach for the soldering iron with my right and did so, brought it infront of me to solder and saw smoke coming from the iron, realized it was my fingers that were smoking so i let go and just dropped the iron on the static mat and ran my hand under cold water. called it in and went straight home!! ended up back at the doctor's and well yeah, second degree burns...sigh... index, middle and thumb...

apparently, since its like over 400°C the first layer of epidermis is burnt as well as the nerves, that's why i didn't feel anything! but on the bright side at least i didn't wait till i smelt smoke before letting go! =D if i did then it would have been so much more worse! haha!!

well that's the story, so after a long break im off to work for two days before i fly off to Perth for our company's sales meeting. hope my nose and ears will unblock before the flight, if not its gonna hurt so bad......

Gdnitez!!

Home Sweet Home

Finally back here to write yet another entry and guess what, my computer's space-bar key totally broke on me like about a week again or so. Sigh. But so far so good with typing and all, I mean it may not be as fast as last time but managable since it's just one pathetic little push tactile button there to press. Most of the time I actaully end of missing. LOL

Work? So far been pretty okay and managable, sometimes; okay most of the time I'm way to lazy to really get out of bed and all but still I enjoy going to work every morning! It's like hello, i have yet another family to go to every day, and that includes Tan Tock Seng Hospital Staff as well.

Apart from that, things at home seem to going pretty smoothly; no like major problems or anything. Been really busy though these past few days trying to settle things and all that. I'm like so stuck in the middle right now. It's not like it's a bad thing or anything, just that it makes life harder when you're being squashed by people whom you thought would always be there to help you - true friends and not just more acquantices, but then again who am I to say any of this?

Man, never thought that pouring out your thoughts onto a website free for just about anyone to read would actaully feel this personal. It's like I feel I'm free to write whatever I feel or think without having to think twice, only downside is that names need to be refrained from use here. But then again come to think about it, it's easier to get over something or to deal with something when it becomes third-party to you; or me. On top of that, it's as though it never happened. You can get it off your chest and still feel as though you're the one reading this and not really experiencing it first-hand. Wrong? Maybe, but still helps a great deal for me and hopefully everyone out there too. A journal that can be used to let things out and to release built up tension and all and your friends can read it and help you through but indirectly.

Making Peace With God

'But' can be such a great word! 'There's been a car accident but no one has been hurt.' 'I lost my wallet but it was returned with all the money still in it.' 'My alarm didn't go off but I still caught the bus.' The word 'but' often introduces some good news when things are looking bleak. Thank God that Ephesians 2:4 starts with a 'but'!

In verses 1-3, Paul describes the desperate situation of not knowing Christ. It is a picture of death, slavery and condemnation. Paul then goes on to systematically show how each of these things is reversed in Christ.

Whereas we were dead in sin and transgression, now we have become alive (v.5). Whereas we weremenslaved and held captive by evil forces, now we sit on thrones alongside Jesus (v.6). Whereas we were condemned, now we ahve been saved from condemnation (v.4-5).

It is exciting and dramatic picture of what happens when we respond to the gospel. Our spiritual rags of death , slavery and condemnation are replaced with spiritual riches of life, enthronement and salvation.

Paul keeps the most unbelievable thing for last. This rags to riches story is like no other you'll hear. Most rags to riches stories revolve around someone succeeding because of his or her own hard work and determination. But (there's that word again) the amazing message of the gospel is that we are taken from spiritual rags to richies for free. We contribute nothing. It is not our efforts that achieve it; it is God's efforts through Jesus. It is a free gift out of God's sheer mercy and love and grace (v.8-10)

There's even more to be said. In verses 11-22, Paul gives another perspective on our spiritual rags to richies story. This time he is not so much concerned with our reconciliation with God as with our reconciliation with each other.

*i found this while in Australia for training, we were going to use this sheet of paper as a rough paper to place under the pump head mechanism while appliying loctite. anyways, i don't know what made me want to open this folded piece of paper and read it's contents, but i did and i'm glad that i did. i found this passage written on it. after reading through it, i found it to be so true and relative to what i was going through at that point of time. God's timing and way of showing us things is perfect, just right! after arriving back in Singapore i read through Ephesians, the whole book. the passage made more sense to me, and hopefully to you guys too.

May God's Blessing and Perfect Timing Always Be With You and Upon You!

One Week

So far it has been one week that shuxin is in camp and whether anyone wants to read this or not i'm still going to type it. i miss him!!! and he gets out on friday, can't wait till friday!! saturday i'm going over and think i just might cook mash potatoes for him. lolx!! he loves mash potatoes!!

today was out for like the whole day. went to church enjoyed that then there was a AGM so we left and then i remember half way in the bus that i forgot my umbrella so i went back to church to get it and ended up running into Soma and haven't really spoken to her so was talking to her and mom was rushing me, then ajay came and called for a quick youth meeting with just the few of us. Octoberfest is going to be happening and i'm on the committee and this time i really do want to participate and get involved, just can't spread myself too thin. and most importantly can't back out at all!! then mom came in and bugged me about leavin' because of meeting reshu but he was late and i was later, ok that's like not a good excuse but it is the truth. anywaz ate at swenson's then went over to starbucks were we had coffee and talked and laughed for hours before heading home for me and to his sis' place for him to study for tomorrow's exam. lolx!!

oh yeah worked has confirmed me a permanent staff but i have yet to talk about pay and benefits and all that. soon i hope! i love work though, it is fun and i enjoy everyday with those guys. which brings me back to my original TGIF lolx!! was doing filing on friday and found out from tina first hand that TTSH has 159 pumps for commissioing this coming monday and an additional 85 from MOH for all NHG hospitals. sigh. NUH has 50 pumps and i thought that was alot now it's like near to triple that number over at TTSH. but as long as i have the room and my hammy is still there it is all good and fun, once gone then going to be a little more weird and ackward i feel, not sure yet though.

sivam's been messaging and calling me recently, he's nice and friendly, i'm blessed literally to have a friend like him in my life and i only wish and hope and pray that he sees that too! he books out on thursday so might meet with him on friday and then going to shuxin's place saturday morning!! =D but for now i need to sleep, tomorrow is yet another working day and i really need to try not to be late...... lolx =p

Shuxin's Going NS TMR!!!!!

Last minutes checks are being made, making sure all things are packed. hehe!! on the phone now actaully with shuxin and well yeah im sad that he's going in and i wont be able to talk to him or anything like that but then in a way its a good experience for him i just hope he doesnt change too much. honestly i doubt he'll change in character or personality and all that but then again its hard to say now.

well everything is packed and there's nothing much for me to write here. works been going good and well im in the process of being converted to permanent and today i brought back all the service books for all the hospitals to tally the PHMs and Batteries that have been used. sigh. nothing tallies properly. at least i got tomorrow off cause im following shuxin and his parents to tekong!! lolx!! just might see andy there since his brother is enlisting tomorrow as well. old man going in too. lolx!! all one shot. hehe.

a certain someone's been away for a while and well i've kinda missed seeing them at the office. i mean yeah i got more freedom when they're not around but then again its self-entertaining to have "them" around. haha!! oh and today i was joking around with andy and jackson and i was making them laugh from what happened earlier in the day actaully more like just that morning and then i told jackson that tomorrow he should spin around in 3 circles everytime he crossed a road, he said i was crazy and we were all laughing hysterically and then Soo (big big boss) walks in and we couldn't stop laughing! i know it sounds lame but at that time it was just hillarious! but he was telling us that it was okay cause you should be able to have fun at work and enjoy yourself at work otherwise what's the point in working. haha! i agree but then i felt bad cause it gives this impression that we're not working and just playing but then we did have the books and papers everywhere. andy was calculating and jackson was reading the results for the HomeChoice and well i was just going through all the books. but it was classic!!! after that all three of us had the same reaction, OM-Goodness we just laughed at the boss' face man!!! it was like "nice one man" but yeah it was too funny and we couldnt stop cause he came in once we like started laughing. haha!

anywaz i gotta go cause even though im not working i still gotta get up early shuxin's dad's picking me up from my place here to go to pasir ris terminal to that the shuttle to get to the ferry to go tekong. gdnite!!!!!

Changing

Change is a good thing as long as you're ready for it. that's why i ask myself that like everyday, "am i really ready for this?" usually the answer is no but there is that occasional yes every now and then. but overall change is a good thing and well yeah im learning that, slowly but surly. hehe!!

i rearranged my room recently, more like just yesterday and well yeah i like it very much. its something different and all that. lolx!!

hmm let's see?? there's isn't really much of anything else going on. work then come home and well yeah bath, eat then sleep. haha haven't really even had time for friends and family. sigh. that's actually very bad, but then its like not really something that can be helped. kinda. oh oh i bought a new book that im reading cause i finished my other one. don't think i posted about this...hmm???

anywaz, i've started becoming a more avid reader so im buyong books one after the other once i finihs reading them. borrowing..nah don't really like the condition of the book but some i wouldnt mind reading again after some time. serious. ok anywaz, i just finsihed Painted House by John Grisham (good book and good author) now im reading City of Falling Angels by John Benette another good book. about Venice (places and people are all non-fictional) a good historical book that makes you feel like you're right there walking through the streets or sitting on one of the gondalas going through the many canals or the vaporette beautifully written and the descritpion is just wow. its not like some of those others that are like totally off the point, this one will make you think or feel that way at first but as you read on you find out it's all linked and intertwined together. so cool. anywaz my show's gonna be starting soon. honestly i don't see anything so great about this new show Ghostwhisperer but then i'm like just transfixed and i have to watch it. if i miss it its like ..man!!! haha. but there's one thing i can't miss and that's my Crimenight which comes on every Friday at 11pm. hehe lolx!! i know it goes till really late but heck i just love those crime scene investigation/detective work stuff.

man would i love to be a detective but then you have to start off as a patrol officer (yeah right to me) i won't last. sigh. still wanna do pathology though. forensic pathologist for homicide cases. way cool but sigh my bio's not that strong. but in any case it's hard to say cause if there's awill there's a way and there is definately a Will!!!!

O.T ..... T.T

Use to love OT cause it meant Operating Thearter but now it just means over-time and that sux!!! its that i totally mind working like, round the clock or anything but if so the pay better be good, which its not and then i should be allowed to come in slightly later...but that's not even negotiable because the whole point of over-time is that you work after hours...at your own free will. but its not totally my own free will anymore. sigh

but at least overall i enjoy work. i like what i do besides the rush for time part of it. and empy promises that i find are being made...seriously..i really do think they're empty but then they need to be said cause its what the higher-ups like to hear. and that's all that matters.

was suppose to go out today but that got cancelled, didnt even go to church today nor was i able to attend the youth meeting with achen. sigh. really wanted to. achen is like so knowledgable, he like knows the whole history of the bible. major cool and wow... then there was that whole thing with checking out on those malaylam classes...didnt happen either. sigh. jz slept and watched tv most of the day. feel like i jz wasted a whole day doing nothing...well i did do nothing..sigh. so wasted!!

had a pretty bad fall the other day so still sore and bruised from that...sprained my wrist today while sleeping so now i have two injured wrists. one sprained and the other bruised. hahaha!!! nice huh??? lolx!! knees bruised and shoulders sore too. haha!! still can manage working but it hurts like hell to carry those pumps from the trolly to the bed. sigh. and then from the repair side to the testing side. worse is those triple channel one. damn heavy!! but good thing that if colin is around he'll do the carrying and shifting for me. =D he's nice!!

gona be watching pirates of the caribbean on wed...kinda wanna catch that one..mystry of spices think thats what its called. haha doubt shuxin will go with me though. lolx!! but still worth a shot on asking. hehe!!

actaully had a post that i've been writing for like the longest time but then for some reason today when i read through it just before posting i decided not too. why?? i have no clue...hmm..anywaz i needa be getting to bed cause there's work tomorrow and its garunteed over-time for me.

bye bye!! =D

Penny for Thoughts

hard to escape, tried numerous times and yet none of them worked. life is so stress-filled its amazing and ironic that the young cant wait to grow up and here the grown-ups are longing for their youth. sigh. personally i find it too taxing, growing up that is. the older you get the heavier the weight on your shoulders and the starting weight depends on each individual's life. i hate responibility, well not exactly hate but its not exactly a walk in the park. sigh.

18 years of no worries or burdens and now its all dumped right there and it aint moving to anywhere anytime soon. man, to think in just one instant on that day it all changed. matured beyond years capable at that time. and yet men are raises to become the "head" of a house. sometimes i wonder if its really that they're raised to be or just by nature they take that role. i mean when parents raise their kinds i doubt there's any main differences between how they raise a daughter compared to a son?? o.O??? i doesnt know!! haahaha =p

watched the Da Vinci Code like a couple of weeks ago. and found that contrary to what everyone is saying, I LOVED THE MOVIE!!! hehe =p
it had a great plot and storyline. a really good "who-done-it" murder mystery movie, yes religion - mainly christianity was at expense and placed in a questionable state but only the faithless will question. a religion is a belief and a relationship one makes with God, therefore who am i to question? i do not doubt His love and that's all that is necessary for a Christian. love plants itself in one's heart and roots from there to spread.

loved the whole history vibe it had to it. kinda happy that i like history and was able to understand what was going on. lolx! but not everything i can comprehend so yeah gonna have to read up on some stuff and double check hehe. kk tv time!!!! =D

Reality Check

Depression is just a state of mind, just like fustration and all those other kinda stuff. sigh. its like i feel something and can't express it. angry and fustrated, upset!! more in disbelief then anything else. can't understand and just dont get it. why am i not understood or believed?? over-reaction! ha! one simple compound word...starting to hate that word man. so lost my mood for like everything. graduation is just on wednesday and yet im excited yet bleah! but at least i get away from work for a couple of days. but then again i love work, hate the agency, can't stand some of the people, well more like just one person. so thankful its just a few more weeks then bye bye. unfortunate part is that that person wants a job here, applying for an opening and there's one. sigh. anyone but him would be great but i doubt it. i really do. but still. sigh.

kk dont wanna think about it too much so im off to get some sleep. need it haven't had a good rest in the longest time these past few days.

TG

What does that mean?? i myself still figuring that out. well i know what it stands for but what it means to me is hard to say.

actaully wanted to type here but just now my mom came in so mood kinda changed, gonna be getting a headache soon, nag nag nag...forever man. sigh.

nevermind, let me figure out what it means first then maybe i'll type it here for you to read... hmm?? maybe...maybe....

but i know one thing, cant help watch or look or wait or worst still be in the workshop most of the time..... i so needa gather my thoughts then sort them all out by priority but mabumby stands alone that's for sure....where do the others like TG fit im still figuring that out....or should i say debating?? sigh...i don't know...

Sydney

Just came back from sydney this past saturday. lolx left on monday for a business trip, needed to be certified to continue with the job im currently doing. it was fun. the plane ride was a little bumpy, there was turbulence man, but overall a good ride. watched Big Momma's House 2 then fell asleep lolx!! reached sydney at like 6am and was picked up by one of the directors of baxter, mr. martin and he took us to have coffee and get something to eat cause andy didnt wake me to have breakfast in the plane. after breakfast he took us over to training and that's where we met vinh (he's from vietnam). then he told us to get in his car and he drove us to his place because he needed to pick up his daughter and take her to school. lolx school starts at about 9am there and ends at like 3pm.

the weather was beautiful!! nice and cool but cold at night haha. training was from about 10am to 430pm and then we were taken back to our hotel. since it was really dark out at like 7pm (looked like 11pm) we decided to order room service and watch a movie. just like heaven totally recommended by me to watch!!!

the hotel was pretty nice as well but was mainly there only to bath and sleep? lolx!! was out most of the evenings, taken for dinner by our trainer and director(s). but overall the weather and the scenery is totally breath-taking...anywaz the second day was pretty much the same except for Charlie picking us up in the morning (he is one of the directors of Baxter in sydney). he drove us over to Baxter to check out the place and show us around. the place is freakin' huge!!! AND it was the first time i got to sit in a Honda-CRV (my dream car!!!!! ah...so cool and nice lolx!!) then it was off to training and then again sent back to the hotel to have a quick shower then we went with vihn and charlie for dinner at this one italian restaurant. the servings are so big!! but good man. first time i got to eat oysters. hehe!!

kinda went on like this for the rest of the week except for thursday vihn took us to macquiere mall, again it was huge!! man the more i was like there walking around the more and more i missed home man...everyone was so friendly and nice and the weather and the space!! the open space and fields and sky with the sun. man felt so sad to leave. friday we ventured into the city on our own. probably not the greatest given the fact of everything that happened which i shall not type out here..

anywaz reached the hotel late on friday, which means that i slept late and then overslept the next morning. missed my cab which was suppose to be there at 5am and i was suppose to be at the airport at like 6am but i only woke up at like 6am and panicked like nobody's business!! totally freaked me out man. then it was like total rush and was so thankful for packing friday evening after returning back from training.

anywaz reached the airport just in time to check-in and then just nice got the plane. so thankful we didnt miss it. would have been totally screwed if we did. the ride back was a total disater but again shall not type that here, so not nice. lolx!! actually just don't wanna talk about it nor remember it, not a good experience at all!! anywaz got back and now its busy busy busy. sigh....

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