Saturday, July 28, 2007

Honestly I'm not too sure myself

Ever found yourself sitting down and trying to sort everything that has or is happening in your life out? Apparently I do this on a daily basis, who it affects? Well I could name one but I'm hoping this person knows me well enough to let it blow over.

Been hooked to a few shows lately. Guess I'm starting to take note of the type of shows that I've become addicted to. Hehe!! I presume it's mainly because they can be reflected as reality. It's not hard or difficult or unreal for these type of plots to become realistic. Serious! So I've been getting home everyday to sit in front of the TV for like 2 hours, just watching these three different shows. Worth it to me but to rather be at home watching these shows rather then going out with family and friends is bad!

Everyone wants this typical normal, 'white picket fence' kind of life. Hard to obtain? Not really just whether you want to make things like this happen. Unfortunately, I feel like I'm a little too old for these thoughts. Of wanting something different from what I already have; more! More of everything, more opportunities to experience stuff, more guts to do stupid things and have a blast. Wish there were more years to poly then just three. Either that or I could re-live those days over and over again. No one should ever want to grow up fast. Savor youth, it's splendid!! There's so much that can be done and said and everything!!

Just feel like I'm stuck in this really tight cocoon and just can't get out. Suppression, depression...don't they go together? Sad =(

Please though, don't get me wrong. I really do love my life, my friends and family and everyone! Just sometimes I wish there was more, more of me and more my time!!! There just isn't enough and time sure isn't slowing down or waiting. It just keeps going and I'm running behind the wagon, yeah there are some highs when near and lows when in the process of chasing it all over again. So how to just get on board and stay there? Dictation surely doesn't help matters. My roof, my rules...such a famous saying by almost every parent out there. Either way understandable. Still sad though....

Honestly, I doubt anyone will really understand this entry. Think it's more of just jumbled words to readers, but it holds meaning for me, it holds inner feelings. So if you do get this, please don't mis-interpret. Thanks!

It's like fast pace it cool, fun, exciting.....but then again slow and steady is also equally fun and exciting...it's pure and that makes it even more precious. Know what I mean? Innocence is far better than anything else in this world, a world full of corruption and yet one can find something and hold on to it, something innocent and pure. Sweet serenity! Something that's so pure you never want to let it go, unfortunately when we have it, we want the fast lane, and when we have that we want the pure path again. Normal I guess, but I can say for certain that I only want the pure and innocent way, something that's so sweet and comfortable and pure.....like sitting by a lake and just enjoying the quietness and the view and the peace of being there all alone to enjoy and take in all of this at one time! To relax there and be at ease, with a peace of mind. Serenity! That's all I can ask for. Singapore is way to high-strung for this though....so what to do? Stick it out and maneuver around the system the best way possible. I'm half way there, just take the lake scenery and add a computer on your lap cause you have a deadline to meet. It's exactly like that. Peaceful with a hint of stress. One good thing is at least all you gotta do is lift your gaze and your stress is gone. It's okay now but not forever. Please understand. Purity is a viture....stress is a killer.

Once things are fully sorted out, there will be another entry that will hopefully be much more helpful than this one in understanding everything. So until then, find your peacefully serene place!!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Dismissed

Every single time I look for you online, you're never there and when you are I feel like I'm being avoided by you. Why is this so? It has been like ages since the last conversation. Don't even bother with last meeting! That was like last year or something but what to do, what to say? Nothing, and I guess it's high time that I stop. But for some reason I just can't chuck everything one side and be all like, "that's the end of it!". Not ever going to work.

Okay maybe my plan wasn't fool-proof in what I wanted to accomplish but in the end it did work out. So maybe she got so pissed off at me and doesn't want to talk to me but that could be due to other reasons as well, which have very little to do with me directly! Either way, I feel screwed. Sigh.....

Friday, June 29, 2007

Irony

Was chatting with a friend the other day about life and what not, and about being analyzed by others. Unfortunately, we should not judge let alone we ourselves be judged. Contrary to that; if not we ourselves who judge us then who will? Make sense? Didn't think so but heck that's life, never really did make much sense to me anyways.

Ever look around at the people around you, what they do, what's new and so on? Especially of those people that you know first hand? Sad part is everyone is an acquaintance but very few are friends, and fewer still our close or best friends. Irony? Written all over in this statement. If you don't get it just tag me I'll explain my point of view but I rather leave it for you guys to ponder on. Come up with your own understanding and interpretation!

Well, I'm sitting here and I'm bored out of my mind to clear out all these back-dated reports that need to be filed. Oh and to think I still have one of TTSH pumps with me. Sigh. Repaired and yet not returned. Can't exactly do an ESA (Electrical Safety Analysis), cause our ESA has gone bonkers ever since it became back from calibration. some error code kept popping up. Sigh, thought that maybe it was the grounding and stuff but it wasn't. Sigh. Yet again must borrow.

Okay, it's like this, borrowing from John, Rossli and Eeswarren is easy, hassle free. Cause they're nice, but when we come to Kevin, it's possible but permission is asked first. Which is fine but at the same time, a little uncalled for. I'm not exactly going to run-away with it, just use it to test my equipment and that's about all. That way it gets done and both side are happy! Unfortunately it's not seen that way. Pitiful i know. But what to do? Nothing, just feed sweets. The one thing I hate to do.

So far nothing major has occurred at work or at home that's actually worthy of being posted so, yeah. Still trying to search for some nice book to read once i finish this one that I'm current;y reading.

Know what just dawned on me? My blog entry title says "Irony" and yet I have digressed to the topic of work, ESAs and now good books for leisure reading. Hmm, wonder what shall be next? It's not that I'm totally off point, just that i said what was pressing on my mind earlier in the entry so now I shall just rant and rave about everything and anything.

But I need to end my entry here and hopefully can continue later tonight. I am being beckoned by TTSH guys. =b

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

What was that for?

There have been so many things in my life that have happened and I'm not really too sure what they were for, but for now another song! Lyrics that is...

Breathe - Hands To Heaven

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday, hey...

Tonight I need your sweet caress, hold me in the darkness
Tonight you calm my restlessness, you relieve my sadness...

Okay that's the end of it, now it shall just continue playing for me to listen. If you would like it just leave me a tag and I'll send the mp3 version over. Now back to the above-I just can't help but be asking what that was actaully for? I mean, honestly, at first thought I knew but than it just sort of happened again and then there was this slight twist that it became something else with the same meaning behind it. I seriously don't get it and am totally lost! Yeah the thought was sweet and well yeah nice and all but really was it necessary? I doubt so. But thank you!

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Long Week, Short Weekend

Long week, short weekends; how true is this statement? Some will argue that of course it's true beause obviously there are 5 working days and 2 weekend days. Then ask yourself, during that 5 days how long does those 8 hours; sitting in the office, goes by? And how long does your 10hours on the weekend go by? Work is slow cause we find it boring to sit at the desk, especially after lunchtime, but then on the weekend when we're just sitting at home watching tv, slacking or going out time flies because you don't realize it. But in actual fact it's around the same, just a few more hours in the office but if you make your life in the office enjoyable (having the right colleagues and loving what you do) you'll find that this statement doesn't apply to you anymore. =D

It doesn't apply to me, only when I'm super packed with an overload of PMs. Other than that it's all good for me. I love my work, I love my colleagues (they're the greatest lot you could ever work with). Stress from work, whatever...it's all bearable, it's all good.

Speaing of which I need to get up early tomorrow for work, Gdnite!!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Why. . .

Ever asked the question before? I have, a good number of times too! Had a friend ask me just now why God makes people with disabilities. At first I had no clue how to answer it, then i remembered this book that I read and that my friend has read too - Red Sky in the Morning. It was about this girl who's brother was born with down syndrome. But he taught her and others around him how to appreciate the little things, like enjoying a sweet and not just devouring it, but savouring everything about it.

We're made all different from each other so that we can learn from one another. That's what i believe and think. It's like this one parable about how things that we can't see we say doesn't exist even though it does through faith and by believing. May sound like I'm going off-track here but bear with me it does make sense.

When we can't see something we say it doesn't exist and that's why many people have a hard time understanding why Christians worship a God that no one has seen. True but love is never seen, it's just felt! Kind of like ghosts, everyone talks about it but who has really seen it (A sentence for the non-believers). God knows how the human mind works, after all HE created it! HE knows that we humans only like to believe what we can see, comprehend and understand. So HE sends us signs and HE comes down as beggars, as the disabled...as the lost..to teach us how we are meant to live our lives, to show us what it means to live! To show us how to love and what it means to say I Love You to someone! We can read the bible as much as we like but can we really ever understand it fully? Yes! But how many of us do? How many of us bother to take the time to understand what HE's trying to tell us, how many of us meditate on HIS word? Very few, a few that could be counted, which is sad to say and I too fall victim to this but that thing is HE's still there to teach and love, HE is patient...it takes time to learn things.

If someone you love is suffering without knowing the magnitude that you do and if you see someone being mean or cruel, arrogant and ignorant to your loved one who suffers...how do you feel? Now after knowing that, how it feels, would you do it in turn to someone else? Not necessarily to a disabled but even to an able person if you are in any way mean, cruel arrogant or ignorant to an other's thoughts and feelings than you are no better and haven't learnt fully!! They teach us about life, love and the meaning of helping one another.

Things my mom as always told me..

1) Always stretch out your hand to pick up the one who as fallen

2) If someone is to slap you, turn the other cheek to him for a slap

3) HE took the mighty from their thrones and the lowly HE has made of high estate (be humble and fearful)

4) Always give....give with two hands and receive with one (we should give more then we receive)

5) Love your neighbour as your brother (love, help and share; look down and judge no one, cause we are never judged by HIM just loved)

6) Never bite the hand that feeds you (Honour thy mother and father; and whoever else helps you in life)

Hopefully I didn't side-track and you understand...

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Major Make-Over

Got some new furniture in the house and new bedroom set. King-sized bed!! I'm so psyched!! It's a nice soft mattress!! Today I guess overall was a pretty okay day...only bad part was having to deal with Mr. Director of TTSH BME...sigh...

I mean come on, if I say that it is an arrangement made between two people than what does that mean? It means that I'm left out, i hear the third wheel roll that's all!! I just follow instructions and execute, that's my job when it comes to commissioning! But this smart fellow made a huge issue out of a very minor misunderstanding amongst the users themselves. What to do? Stand there and take the brunt end of it? Nope! Not I, I fought back and stood my ground, which caused him to just get more pissed off and now wants to meet my big boss...sigh.

Can't believe he just by-passed my manager though. Although he was informed by myself and this guy, my manager just told me, "...if he wants paper then we give him paper, he want toilet paper also can.." then he laughed. Everyone knows how this fellow is, but I do have to admit it is hurtful the way he speaks forcefully and worst he how head-strong he is and determined to be rihgt and make you in the wrong, it pisses me off but still, humiliated me. Couldn't take it so I just walked off, think that gave him a sense of victory, cause he came behind to remind me again to set the date and time for a meeting. Know what? I ain't gonna bother!! I can care less about what he has to say or think or feel or what he wants to persue. Go all the way...then go..go all the way to the top and jump I clap for you!!!

Man this guy just irritates the hell out of me!! But again what to do?? I am still the vendor and he is my client, thankfully there was the verbal agreement that this guy will be totally out and I only have to deal with my husband, I can deal with this arrangement!! So tomorrow have to make sure that this is inforced by making sure my manager is made aware of it and makes sure it comes true. In black and white!!! haha!! Stupid idiot of a guy!!!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

God Bless the Broken Road

I set out on a narrow road, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two, wiped my brow kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream, lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms
This much I know is true, that God blessed the broken road that lead my straight to you


I think about the years I've spent, just passing through
I'd like the have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand, you've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream, lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms
This much I know is true, that God blessed the broken road that lead my straight to you

Now I'm just rolling home into my lovers arms
This much I know is true, that God blessed the broken road that lead my straigh to you

That God blessed the broken road that lead me straight to you........

By Rascal Flatts

Beautiful song that I just fell in love with. Question!!! Can this be our song?? Agree!! =D ...don't mind me here... =D

Monday, April 09, 2007

Cut 'n' Paste

Man if only this could be done in real life, cut, paste, cut don't paste, delete! Been sitting here working, change dates, cut, paste, cut paste, copy paste, delete, enter new dates. It could be used on people (not that i want to cut or delete anyone from my life I'm just saying), special moments can be relived by just copying and pasting or something could happen later when you feel your more prepared or something. But this is only wish ful thinking and not reality. Sigh. Unfortunately.

Radio's playing a song that I do not quite like but I really love this one line from the song, "..if pages could burn, now it's your turn...". There is so much that can be said from just this one line but I shall not go there, midn went blank on what i wanted to write.

Man am I swamped with paperwork here. Worst is now I have to go back to TTSH tomorrow to collect my Service Repair Data Sheets, sigh, then have to pass everything back to every engineer that I owe paperwork too. Another major sigh there!

I want to go home, can't. Too much work that needs to be done here first....I so want to lie on my bed, drink something hot and watch tv. My back is killing me. Sigh. Back to work, enough talk here.... bye bye.

Friday, April 06, 2007

Black Monday?

I know today's not Monday but my past Monday was totally not what i expected even from Monday blues and all that. Just imagine, Monday after lunch I was heading back to my work station. Was thinking of just going through the doors at B2 but then something told me to buy a water bottle; I was thirsty...and thought my colleague would be too. So I decided to back-track and go up the escalator to 7-11 then take the lift from there up. Anywaz, I went up the first escalator; no problem, but when it came to the second set one was under maintenance so only one was operating. Though stationary everyone kept to their left and walked either up or down. I was walking up, mind you left hand in a brace, was slightly higher then halfway up when this man comes running down with this huge backpack. His shoulder brushes against me and says sorry, still running, but his backpack ended up dragging my down backwards...all the way down the escalator. And get this?? He didn't even bother to stop to help or assist or at least ask if I was okay. Sigh. Young guy, late twenties to early thirties. Smacked the back of my head pretty bad, luckily no fractures or anything but alota bruises and red marks. And I'm so damn sore!!!! couldn't really walk or sit or anything just lay there on the bed for like two days straight. Finally but the third day was able to move around a bit. Now so much better but still need a lot of pillows behind me and all that.

Movement may be limited but heck I'm still "okay"! Hmm, oh yeah, ended up with this really bad throat infection as well, still suffering from it even now, lost my voice just yesterday, haha!! Fever's gone down but it still comes and goes as it pleases,sigh! Other than this..everything is good!!

Today's Good Friday and I didn't even go to church, feel back but there's no way I would have been able to participate for the whole thing, it's a long one, three parts! A lot of standing and kneeling involved so yeah would have had some problems there which would have been embarrassing to explain and all that.

Can't wait for Easter to come!! I love Easter!! I need to get to sleep now, can't sit for too long...Gdnite!!!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Overloaded

Should I even be complaining? Doubt so, at least I have work to do. Haha!! But still I prefered the time around Feburary, not so packed and not so rushed for time. Either way, hehe.

So right now I'm sitting here in my office and guess what? I'm the only one here, not really sure why though. My manager called me this morning asking where I was, told him where I was at and that I'd be coming down here, came and there was no one. Kind of cool though. Never really was able to be here alone from the get-go, this is cool. Can blast music and what not, hehe!!

Kk, I better be getting back to my excel spreadsheet so I can head back to TTSH before lunchtime or at least during lunch. =D Tata!!

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Migrain

Just yesterday I was having this super painful migrain headache that just drained me fulling and worst was i couldn't really enjoy the movie! sigh!! It was a great movie though, 300. Really love the effects of blood splatter and all that. Superb!! Great show and the storyline of how anything can be done with passion adn determination. Numbers are irrelevant, it's all about the will and passion and love for one's country and people!!

Anyways, nothing much to type just wanted to chat on MSN a little and see how Lesley was, thought I'd enter a short post about the movie but yeah migrain's coming back so, tata!! Next entry I'll elaborate.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Big Burden

Workload for March is catching up with me and I am now starting to feel it; either way I still enjoy what I do and at least had a call from a friend of mine which allowed me a few moments of a good needed laugh. Oh and I'm still curious as to why the lone just got cut, I'm going to guess that your battery went flat but yeah let me know!!

Tomorrow have to be at office early, get this feeling that my manager is starting to wonder why I'm never at the office anymore, literally it's as though I'm camping out at TTSH. Sigh. I'm not complaining though. I kind of like that room, it's a little cosy once you get use to it and believe you me if anyone is comfortable there it would be me!! I'm like forever in that room. So tomorrow there's commissioning, handled by my colleague and then the PM which is going to be done by me at the same time chasing after some of them for my pumps and then chasing them to sign service reports. Haha!! It's always fun to chase for my special "autograph session" because it's one report per pump!! Lolx!! Photocopying is the killer though. Good thing my office is comfy and cosy and nice ambience to work in. If not think I'd go insane!!

Right now just going to coast till this sunday, finally get to meet Shuxin after like how long?! Oh and my special day is coming!! Haha!! can't wait, only bad part is I'm working on that day but than again it's not really that bad cause I have this feeling that I just might enjoy going to work that day!! But I need to be at two places that day, office and TTSH BME!! So want to have lunch with all those guys on that day, will definetly have more fun!! No offence to my colleagues they're great people but BME even more fun cause I've known them longer and well yeah....but I really do wish to get to know all my colleagues and develope bonds of friendship with them and my clients!! Meaning all the other BMEs out there and not just TTSH's.

Right now listening to Lifehouse Family, great band love all their songs!! Unfortunately i need to shut-down and get my butt to bed, need to be at office by 9am, which means I have to leave my house at 7am to reach just nice on time, my office is way too far from my place. Just imagine I travel to Pasir Panjang everyday from the nortnern tip of Singapore!!! North to South literally!! but I'm near Vivo so can't really complain too much, just the travelling kills me, I'm not a traveling kind of person, I prefer nearby things. Me lazy, haha i know!!

kk Gdnite people!!! =D

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

New Look

Not really sure why I decided to change my blog's layout, just was going through stuff and then came across this file and i guess i just liked the name; Simple Colors. Sounds nice huh? lolx! Unfortunately, I find this color scheme too light and the colors blend way to easily, it's kind of hard to really view and see the difference. But the background color is really nice so I have decided to keep it for a while. Prefer these light colors; not white, just light colors rather than the black that i had. Too dark, too gloomy.

Now, on a lighter note, things at office seem to be going well. Alot of new things going on, alot of changes too; things should turn out for the better!! I hope!! Hmm, workload as increased but i think that I've handled it pretty well so far. but still needed Andy to come down and help me. Repairs ended up being my killer!! Sigh. Guess I got so caught up in my PM that i just couldn't get my repairs done on time. Good thing he's pretty free this month to help me out. =D

Other then that, I've been having this, new addiction?? If you could call it that..lolx!! with Korean dramas. haha!! So far I have seen (and own), Lovers in Paris, My Girl and most recently watched (just an hour ago) Full House. My next aim to to get the DVD Princess Hour, I hear that it's really good! Joy has the DVD so I might borrow from her first if I like it then I'm so going to buy it!! haha!! There's this one TS shop at Square 2 over at Novena next to TTSH and they're having this sale cause of opening or something like that. Prices very reasonable!!! I sound like JL hahaha!!!!!

Kk bedtime!!! Gdnite people!! =D

Thursday, March 15, 2007

=.=

Nothing much to post...today was a very eventful day if i should say so myself!! had a great laugh today while in A&E repairing a pump. lolx!! if you wanna know more please IM me and I'll tell you about it!! shy and JL you guys will love this and laugh your heads off as well!! =D seriously!!

lately been feeling really down, not sure why. i mean its not like I'm depressed or anything just really down and i myself don't know why. maybe because of further studies maybe because of work or family....i have no clue..sigh...this sux big time!!

probably should be getting to bed but i don't exactly feel sleepy but tomorrow is another day full of PM and running around to find people...still trying to figure out a solution for ED pumps. i know i need to get the list of S/N's first but still need a plan after that!! see how it goes, see whether this boon kwang will call me or I'll have to call him. the name sounds so familiar, think I've met him during attachment just don't remember the face. apparently Michael's face comes to mind, hahahas!!!! not good!! lolx!! =p

been listening to Nelly Furtardo's songs a lot recently, especially All Good Things Come To An End and Say It Right. not very helpful to the mood thing i got going but i find the lyrics very meaningful...just not sure how....well not in their literal context of course...that subliminal message that's being sent out. it's hitting my conscience pretty hard...sigh...nevermind please don't get that and i might be a happier person!

I need sleep and a whole lot of other stuff, need to figure out why, first of all I'm so down then the rest can be dealt with...either that or it'll just solve itself, that would make me even happier!! haha!! kk I'm off for now, it's bedtime!!

WHY DO ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END........!!!

Thursday, March 01, 2007

=D

Have no idea what to type or say, nothing really going through my head but this song....
Rascal Flatts - My Wish

i hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
and each road lead you to where you wanna go
and if your faced with a choice and you have to choose
i hope you choose the one that means the most to you
and if one door opens to another door closed
i hope you keep on walking till you find the window
if its cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
but more than anything, more than anything
my wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it too
your dreams stay big, your worry stays small
you never need a care more than you can hold
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to
i hope you know somebody loves you,and wants the same things too
yeah this, is my wish
i hope you never look back but you never forget
all the ones who love you and the place you live
i hope you always forgive and you never regret
and you help somebody every chance you get
oh you find God's grace in every mistake, and always give more than you take
but more then anything, yeah more then anything
my wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to
your dreams stay big, your worry stays small
you never need a care more then you can hold
and while you're out there getting to where you're getting to
i hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too
yeah this, is my wish.......(x2)
i hope you know somebody loves you, may all your dreams come true....

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Judgement Day

Nothing special about this post just thought of talking about the one thing that i dreaded for the longest time, well actually it wasn't that long of a time but because it was so precious to me and vital a day just felt like eternity. anywaz, it's been three years since judgment day, three years ago this very day 22.02.03 that was a good day for me, or shall i say evening. and right now its a good one too. i mean yeah its not exactly ideal and all but it's as good as it can get for the moment.

this just might be back-dated to i have no idea what day, but i just put in the title then and am writing this now. haha!! hope that made sense to you people. still wonder if anyone really reads this, doubt it so yeah whatever! =D

now back to my judgement day! it was alwaz so passive the way it was written and expressed but when i read back on it and really start to ponder i realize how deep it was, how much i longed for the day and yet ironically how much i was scared and didn't ever want the day to come. scared and frightened i was, rejection, betrayal, mocking...everything....just scared and fearful of it all. am i still? no! not at all...i've past that day and have now arrived at the future of that day and i am glad that i went through it because the grass is so much more greener on this side!! =p it's a combination!!! haha!! i LOVE the moon!!! my moon....judgement is over and believe me after that one anything else that's thrown at me is much, excuse me, so much easier to handle! i can face anything i can do anything i can be anyone!! i can have it all!! the world and beyond...no limitations for anything, it's like i own the world!! and so much more!! its a great feeling and to know that it went the way i wanted it too and everything! i didn't expect that but then how many of us really are confident with high self-esteem? not many...especially not me! honestly, i felt like my question was going to be probed at...i felt like it would have been laughed at and mocked...i felt like it would have suffered from ridicule and so much more...but it didn't; i thought it did at first but then when my head cleared and i read through everything again i realized that my prayers were answered and i felt like it was just meant to be such....it was suppose to be that way....messed up but still true to the answer i seeked and desired...i got it!!! i got it and am still receiving...more and more everyday...and i am so thankful!! so very thankful to everyone and anyone who played a part in it and well yeah..thanks!! thank you for everything!! for the right answer, the treatment, the ease, the peace just everything...perfect timing..perfect beautiful timing.....couldn't have asked for it any better and i thank God for it....everything was perfect just like His plan for me..perfectly beautiful!!! =D

now it's bedtime and i needa get some sleep so im not late for work tomorrow...sigh cleaning 6D TTSH....needa pack and get outta there before renovations start....cyaz!! gdnite!

A Cold Heart

Nope it's not that i'm in a bad mood or heartbroken or anything, it's just this new book i'm reading; this is the title! i'll tell you this though, it's one confusing book. the plot is good, real good but the lead characters and storyline changes with the characters and it's confusing because there are different characters solving different cases only later in the book do they merge into one case, one Cold Case (another good show btw).

i mean i have nothing against change in lead characters, just don't write it as "I" and then i'm left to continue reading confusing which "I" it is. sometimes the chapters continue with the same character and others change and it's not clearly defined but still overall a good book. haha!! i guarantee that you would be confused reading it as well, but still a good book!

actaully i did want to type something here yesterday but i forgot what it was...and now i remember but it's suppose to be a entry on its own and not combined with others. nevermind i'll just create it later then save it as a draft first, otherwise i just might forget it again.

shy is leaving for aussie soon, so that's one less friend to have around. and speaking of friends i think and feel as though i have already lost one. it's like wow! made a friend pretty close very fast then all of a sudden it's like nothing! just like that a friend is gone...lost...it's like they just fell off the face of earth, sigh! really did like that friend, a good friend that you can just be yourself with and tell everything, joke and laugh and really enjoy yourself, but oh well at least i still have my old friends, and my new ones from office!

so far i've made friends with andy my direct colleague and then there's all those temp and contract staff that are also my friends, din, jackson, yani! so fun to hang out with yani last friday, had fun eating KFC and talking at chinatown (the wrong place to be at this time of the year) haha but thomas was going there so we decided to get a lift from him to there and eat. lolx!!

kk i need to be getting to bed and sleep, this weekend has been pretty packed for me so not much rest got up early for both days and slept late both days. can't keep doing this because i don't want to be late for work too often. so off to bed i go!! Gdnite people...whoever really reads this..lolx!!! =D

Thursday, January 11, 2007

At Office

Just sitting here in the office right now and well there's no one here besides jackson and he's in the workshop so yeah, no one's here with me. im bored outta my mind!! been trying to clear out my filing and get it done before too late, not sure when the audit will be and sure don't wanna fail that! hmm..should probably write about my trip to Perth, believe you me there's a whole lot to write about, from the full of turbulence flight going there, the river cruise dinner (beautiful view, spectacular!!) , the vineyard, shopping area and lastly the yatch sailing!! oh the atch sailing was my favorite and i was pretty good at steering the yatch, it was only 36'. but still haha!! the view there was fantastic!! skipper was really cute, i almost fell out of the yatch and uhm there were alot of box jellyfish in the water, we came in second last for the race but heck it was overall fun!! first time i had corona too. =D didn't like it that much but it wasn't that bad..still prefer breezers. haha!!!

well it's hard to write about the trip, it's more of the experience then anything else, you just had to have been there. maybe i'll try to upload pictures, but till then i'm off to get my little behind home for dinner!!! =p

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

2007

Hmm?? been so long since i've last written anything here and im so tempted to just type in the lyrics to Hinder's song By the Way. bought the Cd because of their hit Lips of an Angel then discovered that i love almost every song on this album. haha!! the lyrics just seem to describe me right now so well, where im at in life, how i feel; especially the bridge and chorus. seems like a depressing song but actaully its not! to me that is, im morbid..maybe? haha!! doubt it just a little crazy and psychotic at times. but still!

nothing much been going on, Christmas was fun, enjoyed caroling but not the falling ill part. was like on MC for the past one week and tomorrow is like my first day back from MCs. lolx!! that's pretty bad i know. anyways, New Year's was alright, not that greatest had better but then again being in pain doesn't make anything better. fingers still sore and a little charred but now its more of a white blister rather than the black is was! oh did i mention that i burnt myself by grabbing the metal part of the soldering iron while tryin' to repair a pump? guess not.

actually its a funny story so let me tell it then im off to bed. it goes like this....

between the 23rd and 24th Dec: went to church for the christmas variety program and then went home to prepare for the carolers, after the carolers came and broke a picture of the Praying Hands, lolx! after that i was suppose to follow in the bus to guide them to uncle matthew's place, so all of us followed haha!! but then after that i was fun and dino was there and then everyone (aunty mary, soma...and so on) asked us to continue and well i wanted to so we did! =D man it was fun but long hours..whole night!! after the last house on our way back to church i so knocked out in the bus, didn't even hear uncle alex blow the whistle for prayer..haha!! after that we came home and slept a little then i went out with shuxin to buy some totally last minute gifts!!

came home and then everyone came over and we opened christmas at our place, by the end of the day i was shot and wasn't feeling to well so i took a nap and at midnight was woken to toast in christmas and say a prayer. then it was bedtime!! the next day which was christmas day ijust felt so lousy...so mom took my temperature and it was high so she gave me meds and i went back to sleep then we all went over to uncle matthew's for streamboat but i just felt worse and worse. that night was up with a blocked/running nose (don't ask it was tormenting one nostril blocked the other running non-stop) sigh. so 26th was suppose to be back to work but i messaged in that i was having a fever so yeah was getting MC, slept in a little then went to the doctor's and yeah was sick, got 2days MC for it. major sigh!!

this is the best part!! on thursday i went back to work and had a warranty pump to repair for my "fav" engineer!! lolx!! so was doing that i still wasn't feeling well, felt real giddy. anywaz, i was soldering and thought of swapping hands cause my left hand is more nimble then my right, obviously! so i hekd the wires with my left and went to reach for the soldering iron with my right and did so, brought it infront of me to solder and saw smoke coming from the iron, realized it was my fingers that were smoking so i let go and just dropped the iron on the static mat and ran my hand under cold water. called it in and went straight home!! ended up back at the doctor's and well yeah, second degree burns...sigh... index, middle and thumb...

apparently, since its like over 400°C the first layer of epidermis is burnt as well as the nerves, that's why i didn't feel anything! but on the bright side at least i didn't wait till i smelt smoke before letting go! =D if i did then it would have been so much more worse! haha!!

well that's the story, so after a long break im off to work for two days before i fly off to Perth for our company's sales meeting. hope my nose and ears will unblock before the flight, if not its gonna hurt so bad......

Gdnitez!!