Penny for Thoughts

hard to escape, tried numerous times and yet none of them worked. life is so stress-filled its amazing and ironic that the young cant wait to grow up and here the grown-ups are longing for their youth. sigh. personally i find it too taxing, growing up that is. the older you get the heavier the weight on your shoulders and the starting weight depends on each individual's life. i hate responibility, well not exactly hate but its not exactly a walk in the park. sigh.

18 years of no worries or burdens and now its all dumped right there and it aint moving to anywhere anytime soon. man, to think in just one instant on that day it all changed. matured beyond years capable at that time. and yet men are raises to become the "head" of a house. sometimes i wonder if its really that they're raised to be or just by nature they take that role. i mean when parents raise their kinds i doubt there's any main differences between how they raise a daughter compared to a son?? o.O??? i doesnt know!! haahaha =p

watched the Da Vinci Code like a couple of weeks ago. and found that contrary to what everyone is saying, I LOVED THE MOVIE!!! hehe =p
it had a great plot and storyline. a really good "who-done-it" murder mystery movie, yes religion - mainly christianity was at expense and placed in a questionable state but only the faithless will question. a religion is a belief and a relationship one makes with God, therefore who am i to question? i do not doubt His love and that's all that is necessary for a Christian. love plants itself in one's heart and roots from there to spread.

loved the whole history vibe it had to it. kinda happy that i like history and was able to understand what was going on. lolx! but not everything i can comprehend so yeah gonna have to read up on some stuff and double check hehe. kk tv time!!!! =D

Reality Check

Depression is just a state of mind, just like fustration and all those other kinda stuff. sigh. its like i feel something and can't express it. angry and fustrated, upset!! more in disbelief then anything else. can't understand and just dont get it. why am i not understood or believed?? over-reaction! ha! one simple compound word...starting to hate that word man. so lost my mood for like everything. graduation is just on wednesday and yet im excited yet bleah! but at least i get away from work for a couple of days. but then again i love work, hate the agency, can't stand some of the people, well more like just one person. so thankful its just a few more weeks then bye bye. unfortunate part is that that person wants a job here, applying for an opening and there's one. sigh. anyone but him would be great but i doubt it. i really do. but still. sigh.

kk dont wanna think about it too much so im off to get some sleep. need it haven't had a good rest in the longest time these past few days.