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Decided to do something new to my blog, so went through some skins off the web but instead of using a whole new layout i decided to just save whatever i liked and then i just kinda cut and paste from all the different one's i liked and tada!! =D not much of a change still trying to get some of the other stuff to show and work. but i think i needa another little box or whatever for it. i don't know. but i like this with the stars and finally the html at the bottom. =D

other then that, no mood to study and this moring wasn't feeling very well. still feel like just sleeping but needa study so can't. but how to study when there's no mood?? sigh. what can i do?? nothing just read through and do some of the questions that i have more trouble understanding. but i don't think i'll do that badly. but then again you never know. that's kinda the scary part. sigh. oh well...

think i should be taking a nap soon. but for some reason just don't feel like doing anything, nevermind i shall rest a bit then get to studying then if i have time i'll work on my blog again. wanted to do so much during the holidays to my blog cause it's been like so long, too long since i've done anything to it or whatever. still more i wanna put to it and add on. lolx!! in due time, all in due time.

think i just might be back later to write another but for now....NAP TIME!! =D

Sigh, hols are gone... but nevermind at least i get like a few more hours to spare when school starts. just wonder who'll keep jia ling company through lecture and what not, kinda a boring subject you know.

just chatting to violet now. wanted to go for the class gathering, but now with summer school, sigh. been awhile since i've seen any of my sec 4 classmates. been awhile since i've even seen ger, but oh well..haven't talked to her in awhile either. been too busy and think she might just be doing her attachment but then again she would have messaged or called me or something if so, and if not still so. hmm?? i don't know..?? anywaz, think i might just go for that. anywaz it'll be fun but i must get hold of ger and then we go together or i'm not going.

don't know why but its alwaz been like that. we've alwaz done things together and go for things together unless its cca then no choice cause our cca's wer very very different. =D but there were still certain things we were still together with. like fonder's day, and cca awards. lolx. miss those days and yeah hanging out at the study area before school, and the library during lunch and everything we did. really miss those times of just sitting class and the chinese teacher over there flashing transparencies to copy words down from but i'd go and sit by ger and we'd talk and i'd do math homework while she copied and we'd sit there and talk and work. =)

and as much as i'd love to remember all those days, i needa be getting to bed. been i don't know how long since i've had a good nights rest and yeah its really starting to show. so worn and run down. nevermind sleep early is the key for me. and not forgetting FOOD!! =D lolx!! but for now its time to sleep. so need it man....

Eye sore and swollen, back is hurting me. sigh, im just a mess, i need rest...

EXAMS!!! ...sigh...

Exams have all started and yeah..so far not so good. made some careless mistakes for the last question but other then that math was ok. MI was a total gone case for me. honestly i stared at the paper and didn't really know how to do at all. God is great man!! for not studying much cause of aunty shirly's house prayers and everything, yeah, prayed in the exam hall. =) and it just kinda came to me. everything from the notes that i remember reading and writing out i remembered and was able to do those questions, of course there are some that will be wrong and yeah but heck still!! =D don't think i'll fail but yeah won't to do well either. sigh. oh well. =)

wanna thank amelia for the sms after school today and the email add!! thank you!! i emailed and now can only pray that its accepted. really want to go and yeah kinda really want it but then again i don't know whether its meant for me to have. do i need it?? i don't know only God does and He'll settle everything for both of us. i have faith even if you don't =)

kk i need sleep. practically didn't sleep the whole of the weekend, don't ask....sigh..sleepy but hair is all wet. nevermind there's alwaz a blow drier. =p nitey-nite!! =)

Wonder why everything keeps writing out many times. hmm?? weird but ah what the heck. sis just came back with something for me. a carabiner!! with my name on it. only down side...its purple..=( bu still its a carabiner!! =D

wanted to start studying today and everything but ended up not feel the greatest and took medicine that made me so drowsy that i slept the whole afternoon and just woke not long ago, ate and now went to get my exam timetable and decided to write a quick entry as well.

nothing much going on except exams are coming and with everything that's going on..sigh, just hope i can buckle down and study and do well. anywaz think that's all i feel up to writing for today. gdnite!!

Hahahaha!!! didnt realize that my previous entry was written 3 times. hahaha!! sorry!! for those who were confused or wandering why i did that?? i didnt!! hahaha. anywaz today was CMB paper and to believe it or not it was all MSQ and one yes one short answer question. i know some like to say and yeah for them it was probably easy but heck it was managable and i was so thankful that it was mainly MCQ, haha CMB is tough studied like mad and nothing went it which scared me so much and the teacher sent this relief through me when i asked and he said "there are MCQ and 1 short answer question" hahaha!! me and jia ling were like "we love u teacher" and yeah shy too was happy. =D

made careless mistakes that i know but im not worried cause i know that dr. forday alwaz tries to pass us no matter what. =) he's a great teacher!! =D after that was nothing and yeah could have went home but decided to be nice and wait, unfortunately it wasn't followed by thankfulness which i thought i'd get, instead i was stripping wires for clarence and well ocme on (no offence clarence) but if i could sit there and just strip wires i might as well go home so i stripped what i thought would be enough for 26 vias and yeah left. and no i was not rude or whatever else. i did say bye, and yeah asked nicely and got that kinda answer back so what the heck. why the hell even waste my time standing there so yeah walk off. and don't say i didnt do something whe i know i did!! whether received or not i don't really bother, honestly didn't even feel like messaging in the first place. not very nice to be tearing in the bus you know!! sometimes i really don't get it?? did i do something or what?? am i unreasonable?? or are you just that spaced out that you never see or realize anything??!! don't know why i even ask, but i garuntee this no more!!! and im serious no more asking anything. i fly solo!! i don't need anyone to follow me or accompany me. alwaz been by myself and so i'll continue and it's fine by me. so from now on, you can forget my asking of anything of the sort cause i won't!!! EVER!!!

so not in the mood to keep mom company. how can i?? she'll know something's wrong and yeah she'll ask and i don't wanna tell. that'll just add more fuel to the fire that's burning and for te many days its been going on, no way man, i don't wanna see no explosion here.

guess in a way i feel like talking to someone but then again i feel like just letting it be and not caring. sometimes when you care too much you end up getting screwed over and yeah everything goes wrong. sigh. but either way who can i talk too?? one's on the other side of the world and yeah the other is sleeping and the last one, no way im pissed at them.......

nevermind i shall try to clear my mind and put myself in a better mood.

Hahahaha!!! didnt realize that my previous entry was written 3 times. hahaha!! sorry!! for those who were confused or wandering why i did that?? i didnt!! hahaha. anywaz today was CMB paper and to believe it or not it was all MSQ and one yes one short answer question. i know some like to say and yeah for them it was probably easy but heck it was managable and i was so thankful that it was mainly MCQ, haha CMB is tough studied like mad and nothing went it which scared me so much and the teacher sent this relief through me when i asked and he said "there are MCQ and 1 short answer question" hahaha!! me and jia ling were like "we love u teacher" and yeah shy too was happy. =D

made careless mistakes that i know but im not worried cause i know that dr. forday alwaz tries to pass us no matter what. =) he's a great teacher!! =D after that was nothing and yeah could have went home but decided to be nice and wait, unfortunately it wasn't followed by thankfulness which i thought i'd get, instead i was stripping wires for clarence and well ocme on (no offence clarence) but if i could sit there and just strip wires i might as well go home so i stripped what i thought would be enough for 26 vias and yeah left. and no i was not rude or whatever else. i did say bye, and yeah asked nicely and got that kinda answer back so what the heck. why the hell even waste my time standing there so yeah walk off. and don't say i didnt do something whe i know i did!! whether received or not i don't really bother, honestly didn't even feel like messaging in the first place. not very nice to be tearing in the bus you know!! sometimes i really don't get it?? did i do something or what?? am i unreasonable?? or are you just that spaced out that you never see or realize anything??!! don't know why i even ask, but i garuntee this no more!!! and im serious no more asking anything. i fly solo!! i don't need anyone to follow me or accompany me. alwaz been by myself and so i'll continue and it's fine by me. so from now on, you can forget my asking of anything of the sort cause i won't!!! EVER!!!

so not in the mood to keep mom company. how can i?? she'll know something's wrong and yeah she'll ask and i don't wanna tell. that'll just add more fuel to the fire that's burning and for te many days its been going on, no way man, i don't wanna see no explosion here.

guess in a way i feel like talking to someone but then again i feel like just letting it be and not caring. sometimes when you care too much you end up getting screwed over and yeah everything goes wrong. sigh. but either way who can i talk too?? one's on the other side of the world and yeah the other is sleeping and the last one, no way im pissed at them.......

nevermind i shall try to clear my mind and put myself in a better mood.

Bout time i actually logged in and wrote some stuff. know its been such a long while but heck been piled with other stuff to do, and yeah..blogging just didn't seem as important.

anywaz, nothing much happening, exams round the corner and then sigh, i don't know anymore. kinda fed up with everything but then its like i feel as though im not doing anything. i don't even go for cca anymore and its not like i don't wanna or anything it's just that with everything going on, how too?? guess i was wrong to think that things could only get better later on. turns out the opposites been happening and its been getting worse and worse as time goes by. kinda sad and depressing but that's the direction it's heading in and i can't in any way yield it, let alone stop it. sigh. sometimes i wonder how many people actually understand? how many can truley understand what it's like and how difficult and tiring it really is?? compare school work and cca is nothing to what i do and yeah i have to admit i gave up. i couldn't handle it so i just gave up. i regret the decision cause i just kinda proved to myself that i can't but worse of all that i didnt even really try. so maybe i should just get right back on and try again?? not that simple. ha!! if only life were, i'd be living a fairy tale man, but since this is reality i just have to face all that's thrown in my direction and try my best to handle it as it comes. but i can still garuntee that i'll suck at it. lolx!!

can't wait for the hols. man, if everything goes well then it's bye-bye singapore for a while. yay!! hahaha!! im sorry but seriously its a nightmare here for me. its like everyday wake only to be miserable. find it harder and harder each day to wake with a smile. use to be so easy but now its like some kinda chore to do so. sigh. hp must stay close by and slide-show must work!! need some sorta reason and yeah remind myself why in the first place, then remember appachin and yeah its all worth it. =D

still can remember the look in his eyes and that smile on his face, his voice and just everything. its like only yesterday he was sitting there at the dining table eating and watching all of us go about our stuff. and the lying on his bed in the room, waiting and asking when i'll be home from school. =) miss him. kinda wish i was able to meet ammachie. from what i hear she was a great person. kind, loving, caring and giving. think i would have really liked her alot. sigh. if only. but then again things happen for a reason, but what my reason was for not meeting her nor getting to know her??...i have no clue... wonder what it would have been like though..?? *thinking*

bleah..mind too full of things right now, kinda lost my mood to write anymore. and on top of that im sleepy which means when im sleepy and mind is racing with things in it, i tend it get cranky and yeah, getting there now so i'll end here and go lay down now.

Bout time i actually logged in and wrote some stuff. know its been such a long while but heck been piled with other stuff to do, and yeah..blogging just didn't seem as important.

anywaz, nothing much happening, exams round the corner and then sigh, i don't know anymore. kinda fed up with everything but then its like i feel as though im not doing anything. i don't even go for cca anymore and its not like i don't wanna or anything it's just that with everything going on, how too?? guess i was wrong to think that things could only get better later on. turns out the opposites been happening and its been getting worse and worse as time goes by. kinda sad and depressing but that's the direction it's heading in and i can't in any way yield it, let alone stop it. sigh. sometimes i wonder how many people actually understand? how many can truley understand what it's like and how difficult and tiring it really is?? compare school work and cca is nothing to what i do and yeah i have to admit i gave up. i couldn't handle it so i just gave up. i regret the decision cause i just kinda proved to myself that i can't but worse of all that i didnt even really try. so maybe i should just get right back on and try again?? not that simple. ha!! if only life were, i'd be living a fairy tale man, but since this is reality i just have to face all that's thrown in my direction and try my best to handle it as it comes. but i can still garuntee that i'll suck at it. lolx!!

can't wait for the hols. man, if everything goes well then it's bye-bye singapore for a while. yay!! hahaha!! im sorry but seriously its a nightmare here for me. its like everyday wake only to be miserable. find it harder and harder each day to wake with a smile. use to be so easy but now its like some kinda chore to do so. sigh. hp must stay close by and slide-show must work!! need some sorta reason and yeah remind myself why in the first place, then remember appachin and yeah its all worth it. =D

still can remember the look in his eyes and that smile on his face, his voice and just everything. its like only yesterday he was sitting there at the dining table eating and watching all of us go about our stuff. and the lying on his bed in the room, waiting and asking when i'll be home from school. =) miss him. kinda wish i was able to meet ammachie. from what i hear she was a great person. kind, loving, caring and giving. think i would have really liked her alot. sigh. if only. but then again things happen for a reason, but what my reason was for not meeting her nor getting to know her??...i have no clue... wonder what it would have been like though..?? *thinking*

bleah..mind too full of things right now, kinda lost my mood to write anymore. and on top of that im sleepy which means when im sleepy and mind is racing with things in it, i tend it get cranky and yeah, getting there now so i'll end here and go lay down now.

Bout time i actually logged in and wrote some stuff. know its been such a long while but heck been piled with other stuff to do, and yeah..blogging just didn't seem as important.

anywaz, nothing much happening, exams round the corner and then sigh, i don't know anymore. kinda fed up with everything but then its like i feel as though im not doing anything. i don't even go for cca anymore and its not like i don't wanna or anything it's just that with everything going on, how too?? guess i was wrong to think that things could only get better later on. turns out the opposites been happening and its been getting worse and worse as time goes by. kinda sad and depressing but that's the direction it's heading in and i can't in any way yield it, let alone stop it. sigh. sometimes i wonder how many people actually understand? how many can truley understand what it's like and how difficult and tiring it really is?? compare school work and cca is nothing to what i do and yeah i have to admit i gave up. i couldn't handle it so i just gave up. i regret the decision cause i just kinda proved to myself that i can't but worse of all that i didnt even really try. so maybe i should just get right back on and try again?? not that simple. ha!! if only life were, i'd be living a fairy tale man, but since this is reality i just have to face all that's thrown in my direction and try my best to handle it as it comes. but i can still garuntee that i'll suck at it. lolx!!

can't wait for the hols. man, if everything goes well then it's bye-bye singapore for a while. yay!! hahaha!! im sorry but seriously its a nightmare here for me. its like everyday wake only to be miserable. find it harder and harder each day to wake with a smile. use to be so easy but now its like some kinda chore to do so. sigh. hp must stay close by and slide-show must work!! need some sorta reason and yeah remind myself why in the first place, then remember appachin and yeah its all worth it. =D

still can remember the look in his eyes and that smile on his face, his voice and just everything. its like only yesterday he was sitting there at the dining table eating and watching all of us go about our stuff. and the lying on his bed in the room, waiting and asking when i'll be home from school. =) miss him. kinda wish i was able to meet ammachie. from what i hear she was a great person. kind, loving, caring and giving. think i would have really liked her alot. sigh. if only. but then again things happen for a reason, but what my reason was for not meeting her nor getting to know her??...i have no clue... wonder what it would have been like though..?? *thinking*

bleah..mind too full of things right now, kinda lost my mood to write anymore. and on top of that im sleepy which means when im sleepy and mind is racing with things in it, i tend it get cranky and yeah, getting there now so i'll end here and go lay down now.