HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Hahaha i know its not new year's yet but still i'm in the mood for celebration and so not DTLE report. sigh. the research is killing me i mean seriously its damn hard to find anything on blood and fluid warming equipment. sigh. nevermind must continue trying. oh yeah haven't been blogging cause i've been way too busy with everything that's piling and worse thing is human com journal was all wrong. apparently none of us answered the question, provided you can even call it a question. so now i'm like racking my brain on how in the heck am i to answer that question. hopefully the two weeks i've written so far are correct. sad man. depressing too.

at least today was half a day and i actually stayed for DTLE lecture. chee not that bad at lest i lasted for the full two hours better then jia ling who fell asleep don't know how many times. lolx!! last time mi i just couldn't help but sleep or talk, way too boring and yeah didn't learn anything. but this semester must try harder, much harder. need to pull that GPA back up there man. can't afford it, at all literally. sigh.

anywaz, don't really wanna tlak about school. kinda depressing actaully. but what to do?? haha yet again the ever famous answer!! nothing!! hahaha!! ...know what?? i've noticed that lately i've been more and more outgoing and more of a joker and guess you could say. i'm alwaz joking and laughing and trying to make everyone around me laugh too. be it with a lame joke or reply or just being plain old me. =D hehe. maybe im starting to "come outta my shell??" i don't know but im not really complaining. i mean as i look back, i never had a class of friends. class of friends!! haha! but true. as i look back at this year..even though i lost my dad and things got a little rough, i still am happy and thank God for this year He gave me and for all the people that His introduced me to and all He's placed before me for this year, people included. this year has been a good one no matter how i complain. i know what happened was in 2003 but it was the end and carried into 2004 and now it has come to an end, closure. its sad and painful and yeah i still cry but at least i know now and understand. i just hope and pray that mommy does too, and soon. not to be mean but i would like to spend time with well yeah my friends and everything but that doesn't mean i'm neglecting my family or moreover her. sigh. i hope this coming year God will open her eyes and heart to everything and have more compassion and understanding towards all the thoughts and actions of myself and my sister. im also grateful that this year me and my sis have been the closest then we have ever been in our lives, literally!! and i pray that it will continue and that are bond will grow stronger and closer and that we will alwaz be there for each other no matter what.

afterall that's happened its finally sinking in i guess. blood's thicker then water and though we may not alwaz want to admit it, and though sometimes for me it doesn't alwaz hold true, at the very end of everything it does. but now its like blood and blood-water hold true for me. =p doesn't make sense?? does to me. =D makes perfect sense actually you know why? cause im a nut-case who is understood. =p thank you!!

++==im blessed!! im loved!! ===++

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas everyone!! =D

yesterday and today was fun man but am i dead tired. started off with school then after that it was back home to help mom prepare for the evenings events. picked up all the food too. =D haha!! good food man. went for church service in the evening and it was seriously a wonderful service. liked the choir and everything but my favorite was the skit by the sunday school children *the lambs were adorable* haha!! so cute too, one stood up and started to cry and the other one started to get into things, especially the crib hahaha!! but anywaz the santa at the end was good too and the children loved him. very lively and everything. =D

after that we rushed home to prepare for the carollers, edwina came over to drop off lesh's gift and everything but since lesh went carolling she was a little pissed but heck. hahaha!! talked to her a bit before the carollers came and man when they came it was like practically the all the youth of the church were there, but it was lively and nice, the malaylam songs were the nicest or at least to me they were. tom and ivan pretty good with the drums =) everything just went prefect. after that we stayed up and watched some tv and opened christmas and everything. midnight started messaging everyone and receiving as well. it was fun and well yeah at that moment you don't really feel it though. anywaz stayed up watching this one movie, really good movie and everything but mom feel asleep, i should have slept too but hahaha was sms-ing someone i haven't spoken with like that at all. lolx!! last time *ahem* i would message and well yeah try to have a conversation but it was like it never happened but then lat night it did and it was kinda odd but the weird thing was i only messaged back as a reply cause well guess it was my turn to not be interested to engage in conversation but then its christmas so yeah. =p

anywaz by time the movie ended and i went to bed, after eveyone left that it, it was about 3:30am, but since i couln't fall alseep i laid there with my eyes closed till think it was 4 something then finally fell asleep but then had to wake at 5:45am to get ready for church, christmas morning service was at 7am. sigh. not many actually showed up though, lolx most of the carollers went home, they ended at around 5:30am and reached church at 6am then lesh had breakfast with some then her and alan came back to church for service, came home and she bathed and changed then we headed over to aunty lizzy's for lunch. lunch was good but heack we were all too tired to really enjoy anything. =p after eating we came back home and yeah everyone slept for i don't know how many hours. mom and lesh are still sleeping even though i woke up for dinner. hahaha!! tomorrow its back over to aunty shirly's for christmas dinner. sigh. my sleeping routine is gonna get so screwed and monday its back to school, full, long day....sigh...

anywaz think i should be getting back to bed but only after this movie, Pay it Forward. good movie actually, if only it were true then well yeah people would be better and more friendly and the world woule be much better to live in. but who?? lolx!!

kk gdnite people!! Merry Blesses Christmas!!!! =D

Too long..

Its been too long ago since i've written, since i've had time to get in here and type. been engrossed in either doing other things or trying to get work done that i don't even know how too cause it wasn't fully assigned yet. maybe im just way to anxious to get everything done as soon as possible? i don't know. but i do know that i fear this semester esa is turning out to be a lot like mi and its scary..

kk enough about school, outside stuff. nothing going on except with the girls, there's this whole thing with ja and ji ganging up on sue and i don't blame them, i support them!! aunty shirly favors way too much and listens even more way too much and yeah its not fair nor right but then after what happened here with lesh and mom who am i to say what's right of a daughter and what's not. sigh. but uncle henry agrees too, but then again can't really feel sorry for him after all said and done by him. sigh. what to do?? seriously i don't know so please tell me. both family but then again its like sue and lesh are alot alike yet totally different and then ji and lesh are alike yet so different as well, but i know that those two are close and know all details which i know that me and ja would both like to know but unfortunately don't. sigh. but then that whole thing with church and suraj..its like..hello!! i don't know. kinda mixed up. lesh too. lewin or justin..or someone else...make up your mind. even dino said the same thing and then everyone comes to me to do the talking here and there. yeah right like any of them is gonna listen to me? ha!! i know them all too well, and well yeah i know myself too. why make someone else listen if i wouldn't even listen myself? so conclusion there is..just keep your mouth shut as tight as possible and nod your head only where applicable.

can't feel sorry for any of these people though. but then again on the other hand they are family and bloods thicker then water...most of the time but not all of the time..kinda sad...but what to do? nothing so just have to sit back and watch the outcome. and pray its all good throughout.

Depressing yet..fun =)

Today had to wake up early for church even though it was a malyalam service *think spelling is wrong* but anywaz yesterday the area prayer meeting was held at our house and yupz it was packed. think we had more people the most north area people do for their prayers. it was nice and kinda in memory or daddy as well, very nice. even though aunty mary was late and got lost and went to the wrong block and everything, the songs sung were still beautiful and to get God sent is Son and Battle Hymn of the Republic sung was great. was nice too that the song sung for both daddy's and appachan's funeral was sung yesterday and dad's favorit was sung last. =D over all it was nice and yeah i enjoyed and the message was good too, very meaningful and appropriate. now as for today's service, ha ha i was lost during the Holy Communion part, lolx achen totally lost me man. but it was in malyalam so can't really complain. still bugging mom to teach me but so far haven't see and effort in that department. actaully think i agree with ajit, people need to know of their decent and be able to carry forth with it and that includes the language, im only half but yet its still a part of me and i really wanna learn. think i should ask that one ammachie if she's willing to teach, =p *hehe*

had to help sell food today after service. its vinaya's way of getting the youth to come for malyalam services but the outcome wasn't too great. kinda only found out yesterday after the prayer, kinda sad. so yeah no time to prepare anything or bring anything so i just helped sell what joanne and vinaya had there to sell. think we did pretty goood taking into consideration the circumstances. lolx!! think the north area youth rep. needs be to be more dutiful ith her tasks of informing all of us. sigh. but overall had fun. =D

now just tired and worn and tomorrow is the first day back to school for a new sememster. sigh. so fast school's starting and i honestly didn't really get any holiday, at all. there wasn't even just one day i just sat and did nothing but lazy around or rest, even if i did sit is was probably for only a really short while, except when i was sick that time, but still. sigh. and now with school starting i can say bye-bye to sleep. even now i wanted to take a nap after coming back from church, seriously i was so tired that when achen was praying i feel asleep ,thankfully ja woke me up. =p hahaha!! but mom wants help with all the dishes cause of all the big pots. sigh. bye-bye sleep yet again. nevermind maybe can sleep early tonight. ha ha....