Think all this studying is getting to me especially ESA. i mean while studying and asking questions i made so many typo's its ridiculous and the typos were OM-Goodness way off and OM!!! first for LSR=Logical Right Shift, my shift became a "shit" and then when asking about shift left multiple and right divide i wrote out the equation as one ADD and the other "ASS" then wanted to write "typo!!" but instead starting writing "poty" hahaha!! i need a real break and not a so called study break. sigh. -.- i don't know what to say anymore except im so so sorry for th typos and yeah OM-Goodness!!!! after all that thought i needed a break break so here i am writing an entry and in a way can't believe what i wrote just now above but then its like, yea stress man. either that or my typing is getting bad. sigh.
want to play NFS2U but then yeah can't needa study ESA can't afford to do badly like what happened for MI last semester. hopefully neither ESA or DTLE follow after that. sigh. i don't know what else to say or do but sigh. i mean even church this morning went bad. it was like. sigh. dragged on and instead of standing i had to sit and everyone around me was standing except for the little kids who sit after a while. i don't know today's just so not my day man. sigh. hopefully tomorrow's paper will be managable and i can at least get a B, just a B it ain't asking for much just a mere B. and if i get higher i'll laugh man. seriously laugh. BRE and BSPA im at least aiming a little higher at an A or B+ the least. i hope i don't do badly. kk time to get back and study!! study study!!
no more updates till after exams!! please help pray with me pray that no one screws up, gets sick or makes careless mistakes for any of the papers this week including the FCS students as well. thanks!! all of us need it. =D
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Friday, January 28, 2005
ESA?? DTLE?? BRE?? BSPA?? T.T
I have no idea where to start now. it's like everything that could and would possibly go wrong went wrong. still can't believe what i did yesterday, i am sorry for it but only to an extend. it's like everything is getting way to much for me to cope with anymore. im lagging so behind in everything and i so can't afford another screw up in my exams. its getting way to stressfuk nowadays. sigh. but then again life can't be made easy right??
kk away from that subject. kinda feel like playing now but then there's still so much that needs to be done. let's see. there's DTLE, ESA and finishing up BRE. and BSPA i'll just have to leave to a little last minute. think i might have to do that with BRE as well. actually everything is ok with BSPA and BRE except chapter 3 for both. sigh. needa really read through and start doing all those things. just hoping that it's not that tough.
so far i've started to notice a lot of people getting blogs and using blogspot as their host. =) kinda cool, wonder how many there are exactly, people i know of course, using blogspot that i have yet to discover. =) lolx!! maybe after i finish off my 2.2 then i'll have the time to just go through. but for now, there's still so much i needa get done. sigh.
kk away from that subject. kinda feel like playing now but then there's still so much that needs to be done. let's see. there's DTLE, ESA and finishing up BRE. and BSPA i'll just have to leave to a little last minute. think i might have to do that with BRE as well. actually everything is ok with BSPA and BRE except chapter 3 for both. sigh. needa really read through and start doing all those things. just hoping that it's not that tough.
so far i've started to notice a lot of people getting blogs and using blogspot as their host. =) kinda cool, wonder how many there are exactly, people i know of course, using blogspot that i have yet to discover. =) lolx!! maybe after i finish off my 2.2 then i'll have the time to just go through. but for now, there's still so much i needa get done. sigh.
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
CSI
Right now watching CSI and starting to think and wonder about some stuff. where and what am i destined to do or become?? alwaz thought i knew the answer to that question, when i was 4 it was an astronomer, then at 8 and forensic criminal and then when i was 16 is changed to a forensic pathologist. what else it will change too i yet to wait and see. i can only hope that whatever it is its something that i will enjoy and be happy doing. but then i don't know and no one will know. sigh. sometimes i wonder what it would be like if only it were known. if only. but its not, so no point dwelling on it.
it's like i don't know what the heck to think anymore as well. it's like so many things are coming all at once and there's no answers for anything yet everyone comes looking for answers, and they all come to me. sometimes i really feel like changing my hp number but then for some reason i can't bear too. just can't bear to just chuck it one side and then not bother with it and let it become forgotten. soetimes i really feel that no matter how many times people say that the understand and everthing, they don't, they really don't. everything thinks they know exactly what its like, how it feels, everything that comes along with it, but they know nothing. nothing at all. what its like everyday, how much there's to do and get done but no mood and more so no heart to do it. only problem is that no one will ever know cause its not as though you go around broadcasting everything to everyone, but then one person thinks so. apparently she thinks that all privacy is gone and all that's left is no trust between any of us. but that's not true and can't totally be blamed on me nor anyone else but herself and herself only. how hypocritical can it be for you to tell everyone but once one thing is told by another then all hell breaks lose. im really losing it ain't i?? just totally losing it.
however when known to be in the wrong an apology isn't even given. but then again, apologies are nothing more then words and words only. and yet that's the one thing that we seek from others when they are in the wrong. but then again how many people are actaully sincere in what the say when apologizing?? i say a few out of the many. i mena why say your sorry when you know you don't really mean it. if one were to do something or say something then why should an apology saying "i said it outta anger" be any form or reason of an excuse for an apology?? then why bother in the first place?? as a formality?? sickening if you ask me. but then again who am i to say anything, right?? what i say or think is but a mere suggestion that is posed as a little more then something to be discarded, but is in the end. pity aint it. sad and pathetic too. what has this world come too? or better still its people. hopeless man. pathetic hypocrits.
it's like i don't know what the heck to think anymore as well. it's like so many things are coming all at once and there's no answers for anything yet everyone comes looking for answers, and they all come to me. sometimes i really feel like changing my hp number but then for some reason i can't bear too. just can't bear to just chuck it one side and then not bother with it and let it become forgotten. soetimes i really feel that no matter how many times people say that the understand and everthing, they don't, they really don't. everything thinks they know exactly what its like, how it feels, everything that comes along with it, but they know nothing. nothing at all. what its like everyday, how much there's to do and get done but no mood and more so no heart to do it. only problem is that no one will ever know cause its not as though you go around broadcasting everything to everyone, but then one person thinks so. apparently she thinks that all privacy is gone and all that's left is no trust between any of us. but that's not true and can't totally be blamed on me nor anyone else but herself and herself only. how hypocritical can it be for you to tell everyone but once one thing is told by another then all hell breaks lose. im really losing it ain't i?? just totally losing it.
however when known to be in the wrong an apology isn't even given. but then again, apologies are nothing more then words and words only. and yet that's the one thing that we seek from others when they are in the wrong. but then again how many people are actaully sincere in what the say when apologizing?? i say a few out of the many. i mena why say your sorry when you know you don't really mean it. if one were to do something or say something then why should an apology saying "i said it outta anger" be any form or reason of an excuse for an apology?? then why bother in the first place?? as a formality?? sickening if you ask me. but then again who am i to say anything, right?? what i say or think is but a mere suggestion that is posed as a little more then something to be discarded, but is in the end. pity aint it. sad and pathetic too. what has this world come too? or better still its people. hopeless man. pathetic hypocrits.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
Studying's....boring....
So far i haven't studied at all. wanted to start yesterday but then that's another long story between mom and me and then with lewin interceding...sigh. anywaz, not much except for cramming for exams yet again. kinda of starting to dislike exams but the one good part is that after going through the papers and the text, it's not that bad the only bad one is ESA. sigh. that's the killer!!
anywaz besides that i finally went blading on friday with my cousins at bishan park. yay!! so happy i finally started blading again. was a little unstable at first then after awhile i got pretty good at balancing and braking and everything. another was starting to learn how to play badmiton, the proper way and not just anyhow wack the shuttlecock. lolx!! fun!!! laughed more then i played i think =) but if was fun and i want to play every week ok?! and i wanna blade at least once every one to two weeks. ok?! please say yes. haha pleaing with mom ain't that easy either. but oh well. it's exercise so no one can complain that im putting on weight and doing nothing about it. lolx!! kinda mean but heck!
before going blading we were at aunty shirly's and we watch Kal Ho Naa Ho (think that's how it's spelt) i love that movie, and i cried throughout the movie. it was sad man. think i cried that most, haha but seriously its a very touching story. hindi movies quite nice, i like but others a little ha ha. but hindi us either about love or family and sometimes both and i like films like that. meaningful and touching and you learn something from it at the same time. =D
still so much to do and im writing an entry and looking through people's blogs. sigh. really no mood to study but think that if im not gona study at least print out the PDP stuff that way i won't forget later to get it done. off to print then....
anywaz besides that i finally went blading on friday with my cousins at bishan park. yay!! so happy i finally started blading again. was a little unstable at first then after awhile i got pretty good at balancing and braking and everything. another was starting to learn how to play badmiton, the proper way and not just anyhow wack the shuttlecock. lolx!! fun!!! laughed more then i played i think =) but if was fun and i want to play every week ok?! and i wanna blade at least once every one to two weeks. ok?! please say yes. haha pleaing with mom ain't that easy either. but oh well. it's exercise so no one can complain that im putting on weight and doing nothing about it. lolx!! kinda mean but heck!
before going blading we were at aunty shirly's and we watch Kal Ho Naa Ho (think that's how it's spelt) i love that movie, and i cried throughout the movie. it was sad man. think i cried that most, haha but seriously its a very touching story. hindi movies quite nice, i like but others a little ha ha. but hindi us either about love or family and sometimes both and i like films like that. meaningful and touching and you learn something from it at the same time. =D
still so much to do and im writing an entry and looking through people's blogs. sigh. really no mood to study but think that if im not gona study at least print out the PDP stuff that way i won't forget later to get it done. off to print then....
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Sigh...
Got a bit of my report for DTLE done but not much, like only two paragraphs are done. sigh. then there's still AEM test tomorrow. sigh. so much with no time. in a way i feel like pulling outta AEM but then $30 bucks is wasted and so is the education but then i really can't handle the hours even if its not as bad as others for me its bad enough. immune system can't build up at this rate.
anywaz the church program was today and not to sound bias but am i glad my mom aint no tamil. OMGoodness they don't know how to behave in church and well yeah.... it was like so typical and everything. not corrdinated at all and you don't go up and dance that kinda dance in church for christmas and memebers complained about the banghera dance the guys did. but what do say or do. my favorite though was our church choir and the clowns from the NJ-Center. they were good!! and funny and as a whole it was meaningful. very true that the one thing that all of us can give that will forever remain with its value is our hearts and our love. uncle george gave a wonderful message at the end of it all. im proud of lesh, in many ways im proud of her. no matter how much she irritates me..i still love her and all. one day...one day..!!
suppose to be doing DTLE now so i can get some AEM revision done tomorrow after church but kinda have no mood for writing or studying now. so yeah thought i'd drop by with a few words and let out some frustration and then dry my hair and get to bed. i need sleep!!! call it wining or complaining i don't care but i need sleep.
achen will be making house visits and north is this tuesday and i'll only be home after 8pm so sigh...i might not be there...i like talking to achen its fun and interesting he's not like most achen's, he's different..he actaully listens to us the people of the church and really hears what we have to say. another thing i like is that to him the church grounds, all around, is sacred and should be respected. but he's understanding to the way the youth are and their likes and dislikes. but he keeps us in line. not sure how he does it but he's good. =D after his three years and he goes back to india...think i'll miss him around the church and for the services. but that's just the way it goes and i guess i'll have to just get use to it.
made more friends too. talked to SR a little and learnt more about him beside the fact that he's just really really big for his age. couldn't believe that he's a weight-lifter off the top of my head just like that. saw a picture of him when he was younger but not that much younger and well yeah he came a long way to lose all that so yeah. basically he's a child at heart and everything and gets along great with his sis, which i find absolutely great. those two together is cute and funny.
kk think its about time i got to bed myself. tomorrow is another long day and yeah have to get up early again. sigh..
anywaz the church program was today and not to sound bias but am i glad my mom aint no tamil. OMGoodness they don't know how to behave in church and well yeah.... it was like so typical and everything. not corrdinated at all and you don't go up and dance that kinda dance in church for christmas and memebers complained about the banghera dance the guys did. but what do say or do. my favorite though was our church choir and the clowns from the NJ-Center. they were good!! and funny and as a whole it was meaningful. very true that the one thing that all of us can give that will forever remain with its value is our hearts and our love. uncle george gave a wonderful message at the end of it all. im proud of lesh, in many ways im proud of her. no matter how much she irritates me..i still love her and all. one day...one day..!!
suppose to be doing DTLE now so i can get some AEM revision done tomorrow after church but kinda have no mood for writing or studying now. so yeah thought i'd drop by with a few words and let out some frustration and then dry my hair and get to bed. i need sleep!!! call it wining or complaining i don't care but i need sleep.
achen will be making house visits and north is this tuesday and i'll only be home after 8pm so sigh...i might not be there...i like talking to achen its fun and interesting he's not like most achen's, he's different..he actaully listens to us the people of the church and really hears what we have to say. another thing i like is that to him the church grounds, all around, is sacred and should be respected. but he's understanding to the way the youth are and their likes and dislikes. but he keeps us in line. not sure how he does it but he's good. =D after his three years and he goes back to india...think i'll miss him around the church and for the services. but that's just the way it goes and i guess i'll have to just get use to it.
made more friends too. talked to SR a little and learnt more about him beside the fact that he's just really really big for his age. couldn't believe that he's a weight-lifter off the top of my head just like that. saw a picture of him when he was younger but not that much younger and well yeah he came a long way to lose all that so yeah. basically he's a child at heart and everything and gets along great with his sis, which i find absolutely great. those two together is cute and funny.
kk think its about time i got to bed myself. tomorrow is another long day and yeah have to get up early again. sigh..
Saturday, January 01, 2005
2005!!!!! =D
Didn't think i'd be writing today so yeah i wrote a happy new year entry yesterday. found that lion has a blog too so yeah added him, hope he doesnt mind but more and likely he won't. =)
jia ling and shy came over today to get the props done and man did we have fun laughing and talking and most of all eating. but to them i ate like a bird, sigh, i dont know i was just full i dont know. anywaz got a new video in my com now Simply Irrisitible. good show and funny and yeah overall nice. as a whole, the day was fun and i laughed alot so yeah =) . as of now the neighbor is here with her demon child. in the words of ja, pysco mom, pysco child, now just wait for creepy dad. hahaha!! and well yeah have to admit he is a little creepy looking but i guess we shouldn't judge by appearance but if taking wife's and daughter's behaviour...its scary...seriously!!!
thinking of chaing my blog skin again to something else but not too sure whether i should or not. i mean it is a new year and everything and well i find that the depression of the skin doesn't match my cheerfulness in my entries. don't you agree?? lolx!! anywaz will be going over to aunty shirly's soon so yeah might as well get it all done now that way i can use the net while i can. still got so much work to do. let's list maybe then i'll get things done.
1) DTLE report/presentaion
2) BRE report
3)PDP *can't route* =(
4)BSPA *don't understand the ECG data*
5)human com journal *again* =(
6)BRE assignment
all i can think of for now, still have the CT's round the corner, sigh...Happy New Year!!!! =p
jia ling and shy came over today to get the props done and man did we have fun laughing and talking and most of all eating. but to them i ate like a bird, sigh, i dont know i was just full i dont know. anywaz got a new video in my com now Simply Irrisitible. good show and funny and yeah overall nice. as a whole, the day was fun and i laughed alot so yeah =) . as of now the neighbor is here with her demon child. in the words of ja, pysco mom, pysco child, now just wait for creepy dad. hahaha!! and well yeah have to admit he is a little creepy looking but i guess we shouldn't judge by appearance but if taking wife's and daughter's behaviour...its scary...seriously!!!
thinking of chaing my blog skin again to something else but not too sure whether i should or not. i mean it is a new year and everything and well i find that the depression of the skin doesn't match my cheerfulness in my entries. don't you agree?? lolx!! anywaz will be going over to aunty shirly's soon so yeah might as well get it all done now that way i can use the net while i can. still got so much work to do. let's list maybe then i'll get things done.
1) DTLE report/presentaion
2) BRE report
3)PDP *can't route* =(
4)BSPA *don't understand the ECG data*
5)human com journal *again* =(
6)BRE assignment
all i can think of for now, still have the CT's round the corner, sigh...Happy New Year!!!! =p
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