Don't really know what to say so decided not to say much. life can be so depressing and sad...but then again it can be so full of joy and happiness.
but for now its stress out with all the projects..sigh.. =D
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Friday, July 22, 2005
When the Role is Called Up Yonder
Ever heard the song?? maybe in church?? maybe at a funeral, i don't know but i do know when i hear this song. everyone of us labour on this earth to strive for things that if you really look at it are all materialistic, some more then others but still. sigh. aunty mary george passed away today..peacefully from what i hear but still no the less. i can only imagine how uncle feels right now. depend on her in life and now with her gona i'd bet anything he's pretty much spiritually and mentally gone. only physically shall he remain but for how long??
sometimes i ask my mom that question. i know she's pretty much as gone as my dad is. it doesn't matter what you say or do its still the same because facts don't change to what you want them to be. facts are just facts. i know that when God calls us home we should be more then happy to go with no regrets or wanting to turn back cause He knows what's best for us and when, but then its alwaz the ones left behind that seem to suffer and leave more then the others. i just don't get it.
i know i should probably be over and done with this whole issue but its not that simple to just forget and chuck one side. ever since appachan passed away its been like this whole thing with me, something's missing and there was a hole then there was two but now it feels like so many more that i just can't count them anymore. it's not sadness where you want to cry, but its more of this emptiness that lies there once the news is told, later then thoughts and actual emotions flood. i mean i may not know her well or her husband but i know they are nice and that unlce is like my appachan so yeah that's all that i need to know, their good people!!
through life and death joy and pain still shared. ironic in a way yet enlightening. thinking more and pondering really gets me to think that maybe some people are just destined to be together to take care of each other and love one another. through good and bad and even when you're old, to take care of each other and continue to love in life and in death. to break the wedding vows of loving and honouring till death do them part, cause some people just can't stop loving someone even when they're gone. but then again life is full of these kind of things. promises made that hard just so hard to break but then it breaks you down completly inside.
sometimes i wish that death wouldnt occur but then maybe the only way to prevet it is to let it just take as much as you as possible until you just get so use to it. sigh..one solution maybe...i don't know but i hope not....i really really hope not....
sometimes i ask my mom that question. i know she's pretty much as gone as my dad is. it doesn't matter what you say or do its still the same because facts don't change to what you want them to be. facts are just facts. i know that when God calls us home we should be more then happy to go with no regrets or wanting to turn back cause He knows what's best for us and when, but then its alwaz the ones left behind that seem to suffer and leave more then the others. i just don't get it.
i know i should probably be over and done with this whole issue but its not that simple to just forget and chuck one side. ever since appachan passed away its been like this whole thing with me, something's missing and there was a hole then there was two but now it feels like so many more that i just can't count them anymore. it's not sadness where you want to cry, but its more of this emptiness that lies there once the news is told, later then thoughts and actual emotions flood. i mean i may not know her well or her husband but i know they are nice and that unlce is like my appachan so yeah that's all that i need to know, their good people!!
through life and death joy and pain still shared. ironic in a way yet enlightening. thinking more and pondering really gets me to think that maybe some people are just destined to be together to take care of each other and love one another. through good and bad and even when you're old, to take care of each other and continue to love in life and in death. to break the wedding vows of loving and honouring till death do them part, cause some people just can't stop loving someone even when they're gone. but then again life is full of these kind of things. promises made that hard just so hard to break but then it breaks you down completly inside.
sometimes i wish that death wouldnt occur but then maybe the only way to prevet it is to let it just take as much as you as possible until you just get so use to it. sigh..one solution maybe...i don't know but i hope not....i really really hope not....
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Finally
Finally!! i was able to create a layout that i like and that's just me and well yeah its all my own. hahaha!! im so proud of me and well yeah i know im suppose to be studying but heck i totally screwed CE so what's MIIT..it can wait till tomorrow...hehe!! anywaz there will be more modifications so please bear with the its there and not its not kinda layout especially with the text. lolx!!
anywaz tomorrow gonna finally get my hair cut...well more like a trim but still haha then its study the whole day and maybe after the review i'l start on modifications and swapping things here and there. but for now...comments are well appreciated!! i wanna know what you guys think if my plain layout but heck i'l do something but how so far?? =D hahaha kk time for sleep...nite nite!!
anywaz tomorrow gonna finally get my hair cut...well more like a trim but still haha then its study the whole day and maybe after the review i'l start on modifications and swapping things here and there. but for now...comments are well appreciated!! i wanna know what you guys think if my plain layout but heck i'l do something but how so far?? =D hahaha kk time for sleep...nite nite!!
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Speechless
Hahahaha i had no clue that my dear jia ling still had time to come in and read my blog. haha i alwaz had this thinking where yeah url is given but hardly anyone really read this except shy cause she'd be complaining when i didn't write but then agreed that there was no time. hahaha!!
anywaz been reading through BI and i swear nothing i mean nothing is staying in my head..sigh..its like all memorize, everything memorize...CE pass or fail 60% mcq...sigh..MIIT i have some hope but BI is like this total gone case for me..i mean seriously these people think what?? we students have super brain power to memorize everything, i mean i know its important to know but geez...anywaz i better get back to reading, still got those case studies to look through. in mel right?? better go look and see if can save...sigh...
anywaz been reading through BI and i swear nothing i mean nothing is staying in my head..sigh..its like all memorize, everything memorize...CE pass or fail 60% mcq...sigh..MIIT i have some hope but BI is like this total gone case for me..i mean seriously these people think what?? we students have super brain power to memorize everything, i mean i know its important to know but geez...anywaz i better get back to reading, still got those case studies to look through. in mel right?? better go look and see if can save...sigh...
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Stressed
Ever felt like you were being buried alive by work?? honestly i don't think i have, i mean yeah stressed and everything but not really buried cause it's alwaz been managable..but now its like there are so many projects that i've literally put on hold and its kinda pathetic. and makes me feel useless, i mean like i cant manage stuff and all that..sigh..
anywaz enough about project and Ct's and everything. interesting part of today..HDB inspection of windows haha and i never knew that our top windows weren't up to standard. hahaha!! i mean firstly we just bought the place and didnt pay attention to those kinda things and never really bothered to know who the contractor was so yeah it wasn't HDB...lolx but not our fault haha!! then cause we like never i mean never open those small windows on the top of the window so yeah never really noticed only kept up with the one's we alwaz open so now gotta change the screws, they're gettin' rusty. hahaha!! my mom was like "now what" and i was like "hahahahahah!!!!!!" so yeah think my neighbour thought we were like two crazy people cause most home owners would i don't know...panic but heck just change and its HDB doing and we get it free cause of everything that went on so yeah. hahaha!! i just think this is funny the guy was like " your top windows are potential killer windows" nice phrase man...
nothing much going on today, basically just stayed home and studied and well yeah didnt clean much either but then again, joke of the day..my mom's and my sis' cupboard..both broke. hahaha!! can you image both of them now have all their clothes on their beds and its like haha kk wait until can get a cupbaord and all will be cleaned..lolx..and im gona re-arrange my room yet again..thinking of shifting my desk to the corner where the head of my bed is now, facing the window and my bed still in the same direction but more to the middle of the room, then the keyboard under the shelf and the chair i have no idea yet..but how's it sound so far?? lolx, shy give answer!!! hahahaha!!
study break making me crazy?? nope BPD did a pretty good job of that already, hahaha!! laughing like no one would ever believe but heck..just for the heck of making people laugh i literally started mimicing shuxin's character in that game he plays, so i acted out the fight scene with sound effects until he made his character dance then haha yeah did that until he and i were laughing and my mom and neighbour just thought the two of us were crazy cause we were sitting on the couch me so called watching my korean drama and he playing..hahahaha!! worse then two little kids man. lolx!!!
just the other day at church achan came up to me and asked how my dad was, i was like huh?? and then he realized he asked the wrong preson the wrong question, he meant to ask my cousin cause my uncle just had surgery but achan was like...im so sorry...then even when i told him it was ok people sometimes still ask he was like...yeah but not from your achan and well yeah that's true. but then it was unintentional and innocent so yeah he's forgiven, its the banks who i can never forgive!! but anywaz..who am i to complain right?? right!! so be happy and smile like there's gona be no tomorrow, ok!! aja!!! hahahahahahahaha! =D
anywaz enough about project and Ct's and everything. interesting part of today..HDB inspection of windows haha and i never knew that our top windows weren't up to standard. hahaha!! i mean firstly we just bought the place and didnt pay attention to those kinda things and never really bothered to know who the contractor was so yeah it wasn't HDB...lolx but not our fault haha!! then cause we like never i mean never open those small windows on the top of the window so yeah never really noticed only kept up with the one's we alwaz open so now gotta change the screws, they're gettin' rusty. hahaha!! my mom was like "now what" and i was like "hahahahahah!!!!!!" so yeah think my neighbour thought we were like two crazy people cause most home owners would i don't know...panic but heck just change and its HDB doing and we get it free cause of everything that went on so yeah. hahaha!! i just think this is funny the guy was like " your top windows are potential killer windows" nice phrase man...
nothing much going on today, basically just stayed home and studied and well yeah didnt clean much either but then again, joke of the day..my mom's and my sis' cupboard..both broke. hahaha!! can you image both of them now have all their clothes on their beds and its like haha kk wait until can get a cupbaord and all will be cleaned..lolx..and im gona re-arrange my room yet again..thinking of shifting my desk to the corner where the head of my bed is now, facing the window and my bed still in the same direction but more to the middle of the room, then the keyboard under the shelf and the chair i have no idea yet..but how's it sound so far?? lolx, shy give answer!!! hahahaha!!
study break making me crazy?? nope BPD did a pretty good job of that already, hahaha!! laughing like no one would ever believe but heck..just for the heck of making people laugh i literally started mimicing shuxin's character in that game he plays, so i acted out the fight scene with sound effects until he made his character dance then haha yeah did that until he and i were laughing and my mom and neighbour just thought the two of us were crazy cause we were sitting on the couch me so called watching my korean drama and he playing..hahahaha!! worse then two little kids man. lolx!!!
just the other day at church achan came up to me and asked how my dad was, i was like huh?? and then he realized he asked the wrong preson the wrong question, he meant to ask my cousin cause my uncle just had surgery but achan was like...im so sorry...then even when i told him it was ok people sometimes still ask he was like...yeah but not from your achan and well yeah that's true. but then it was unintentional and innocent so yeah he's forgiven, its the banks who i can never forgive!! but anywaz..who am i to complain right?? right!! so be happy and smile like there's gona be no tomorrow, ok!! aja!!! hahahahahahahaha! =D
Friday, July 08, 2005
Hiatus
Been very long since i've last written and guess what, same old same old..been busy like you would never believe. i mean how ridiculous is this?? my other hotmail account was closed and all my mails were deleted!! just because i haven't exactly been online lately...sigh...bye bye autopy report.....=(
other than that, project is moving ever so slowly. serious final review on 16 of august and the final report is like not even half way done, software takes up like at least 6 pages of the report so far and then hardware i have no idea what to write and then there's the fact that this report is like a freaking user manual i have no clue how to really write it and its not like i can just continue on from the interium..sigh..again!! then now the PDA can export but its only in .txt format so yeah now i have to get the VB (visual basic) to read a text file within a database...sigh..databus can be created and the template is there but just can't get it to read. but at least can input the data but can't read the data from an outside file.
then there's still the IrDA (infra-red) to program to send out the information from the microP to the PDA. sigh. really hope jia ling can get the PDA to store and send over..and not forgetting the strain gauges...at least and hopefully mr chua will solve the LCD problem soon.
and not forgetting CT's is like starting in two weeks, next week study break so yeah gona cram like nobody's busniess!!! right now at least got a bit of time to write something here. there's a BME gathering over at LT61 so yea im gona be going over soon with shy for the food!! hahaha!! kk better be heading over catered for 120 students but then haha no clue how many are really gona show up so yeah fill tummy and then pack back and run off. just nice, home in time for crime night. =D
other than that, project is moving ever so slowly. serious final review on 16 of august and the final report is like not even half way done, software takes up like at least 6 pages of the report so far and then hardware i have no idea what to write and then there's the fact that this report is like a freaking user manual i have no clue how to really write it and its not like i can just continue on from the interium..sigh..again!! then now the PDA can export but its only in .txt format so yeah now i have to get the VB (visual basic) to read a text file within a database...sigh..databus can be created and the template is there but just can't get it to read. but at least can input the data but can't read the data from an outside file.
then there's still the IrDA (infra-red) to program to send out the information from the microP to the PDA. sigh. really hope jia ling can get the PDA to store and send over..and not forgetting the strain gauges...at least and hopefully mr chua will solve the LCD problem soon.
and not forgetting CT's is like starting in two weeks, next week study break so yeah gona cram like nobody's busniess!!! right now at least got a bit of time to write something here. there's a BME gathering over at LT61 so yea im gona be going over soon with shy for the food!! hahaha!! kk better be heading over catered for 120 students but then haha no clue how many are really gona show up so yeah fill tummy and then pack back and run off. just nice, home in time for crime night. =D
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