Jaded

Never thought i'd feel this way again. Really just thought that everything was behind me. But it just keeps coming back to bite me.

I know my last post was harsh, after that i took a break because i seriously needed to clear my head and mind and get back to thinking straight. I feel i am back in a safe place where i can think logically and not be rash about my actions or thoughts.

Am i hurt? Yes, most definetly. But what can i do? Nothing much, just need to learn how to deal with everything. Learn how to cope and deal with everything in a very zen kind of way. May sound odd to pretty much anyone reading this, but i know myself and this is what i need.

Well, on another note i'm still on hospitalization leave and not exactly back to work yet. Bone's not healing as well as everyone would want it too but what can i do? Keep it elavated and change the dressing regularly because of the wounds and everything.

Sometimes i really do feel like i just have too much on my plate at a time.That's life.....and honestly i have no mood to keep typing here.

Bye.