Bored..

Nothing interesting has happened today, only yesterday and the day before. kk let's recall.

27/11
Lesh's birthday celebration, she's finally 21 and yeah she's happy and got some really cool gifts man, but heck she's exactly the same but i say give her some time and all will show. =) the night before my and her stayed up watching twilight zone, so ended up sleeping around 1am. haha!! and cause mom's bed was made so nicly with the comforter and everything and yeah after all that hard work no way did we have the heart to remove it to sleep so we both bunked in with lesh. hahaha!! and the mom woke me at 7am to get the deco up and just some last minute clearing for the tables and everything and the fridge for the food and stuff like that. then had to follow lesh in the aftnoon over to sunplaza then came back after that and then everyone got ready before people started coming. lolx!! the first few to show up was aunty sue and des, joy and dino. actaully before that aunty shirly and the two girls came over to drop off the coolers and all that then left and came again later. food only came around 630pm, but shy had to leave before that so only managed to pack chicken wings, curry puffs and potaotes salad for her. lolx!! but it was fun justr sitting there, myself, shy, shuxin and dino and just talked then did nothing. hahaha!! so sad shy couldnt stay longer she would have had fun, and maybe could have helped me to keep the devil child away from me. hehe. =p lesh's friends started coming around like 7 something in the evening. overall it was fun and yeah lotsa food. scary part was saying the prayer before eating at before cutting of the cake. but guess it was ok. after that was just mainly everyone, me, ja and ji and shuxin sitting around and talking and trying our best to avoid that "child" but dang its not easy. hahaha!! slept around 1am that night. lolx!!

28/11
Lesh's actually birthday as well as aunty shirly. so we all wake at around like i think 10am or so and then get ready and go over to aunty shirly's for her celebration but was cancelled in the end. don't ask. sigh. then it was go there nothing much to do so i went and took a nap, lolx!! =p and when i woke and went down there was pizza on the table and all the ones we brought over were throw. =( then after eating we all went over to the front and turned the table into a table tennis thing. haha!! and played that till it was night. then it was like aunty lizzy and reena came back after buying a new car then aunty shirly cut her cake and we all, excluding the girls, went out for drinks and orchid country club. haha!! red wine. lolx!! but guess it wasn't that bad but heck i was bored to death but it did start to get interesting towards the end when everyone was telling ghost stories, be it experience or whatever but yeah that was kinda cool. then it was back home and to crash out yet again. lolx!!

29/11
Did some laundry and vacuumed and yeah then played RO for awhile then yeah that was about it, cause now im writing an entry. hahaha!! hopefully tomorrow is a little more interesting. and to come to think of it, school's gonna be starting soon, kinda happy but then when i think of the homework and then the exams and the waking up early, sigh. but then at least i have something to do and people to talk too and yeah have fun. lolx!! but for now its bed time. =D

Changes

Had this blog skin for some time now but never really wanted to use it but today all of a sudden i went into my blog and started fiddling with the template and then looking through all those that i downloaded before to make changes to my blog like last time, but then for some reason this time i just decided to change the whole thing. hope its nice. =)

lately just been doing alota cleaning and getting everything ready for saturday. lesh's 21st birthday, and mom wants it grand cause that's what her and dad had wanted to do for both of us. sigh. expensive but guess when you look at it as a whole, it aint that bad actaully. all these things will last for the rest of our lives except the food. =D but its still a needed neccessity. =p lolx!! joy came over again and helped with the curtains in lesh's and mom's room and she helped with the kitchen. so yeah this place is getting pretty cleaned up, not forgetting that the last time this place was like fully cleaned was when dad did it every weekend. -.- sad i know. but never really had to do much of anything so its like just carry on and then wam..so much needs to be done at once and yeah its a little tough and very tiring but its gotta be done.

going to shy's place tomorrow. needa pass her back her tape so she can watch her show and then do some other stuff but mainly just talk crap and have a good laugh. =D

but for now i must wait for my hair to dry before i can sleep, so till then i shall just chat and then eat some more *greedy smile* mom made chicken strew. pretty good except the fact that it aint that thick and not enough salt or pepper for my liking, but joy liked it and mom cant have too much salt, so guess in the end..it was just right. =D

Finally got the rods and everything today but then still didnt get a hamper and all that. there's still so much that needs to be done. sigh. but heck needs to be done. lesh wants to go down to ikea but its like she's got such bad timing. i know she hasn't been there and would like to go since me and mom's been there a few times and she never has but then she goes around pretty much everywhere else around singapore. lolx!! but its like she's never free to go anywhere or do anything with us and when she is free there's alwaz something on otherwise. what to do?? haha!! good luck with a solution to that!!

today joy was cute. after going chong pang for the rods we were walking back over to the bus stop along yishun ave 5 when a shuttle for sembawang shopping centre came and she was like let's take this free shuttle then walk from SSC, at first we were like uhm..ok but after being in the bus we thought about it and realized that heck its pretty worth it. saves like 80cents on travelling. hahaha!!

other then that went to united square at novena there for the first time ever in my life. lolx!! after how many years of being in this country. hahaha!! and another thing that happened this morning that was funny. mom order for this dresser on saturday from her 'buddies' shop and he said that they'd deliver it at 1030am, but they came at 930am!!! and i was like sleeping and just woke up reluctantly and then the dorr bell rang when i was coming outta the bathroom after brushing my teeth. it was like so..arg!! still sleepy but must open the door and clear the way and direct them to my mom's room. lolx and we didnt even finish cleaning the area before the dresser went there. =p hahaha!! nice one huh?? kk gota go finish putting things in for my mom. =)

So much as been going on. sigh. so much to do and no time for it, and to make matters worse that bruise on my foot is getting worse and more and more painful and the vein turned red again. kinda scary looking, mom wants to take me to the doc but i don't wanna go and aunty sue says give it another couple of days and see if it gets better. i don't know. =( all i do know is that i don't wanna be seeing any doc anytime soon, but what to do??

other then that got my room all cleaned up and everything but now its a disaster again but at least this is easily cleaned as all it needs to do it be taken out and placed in my mom's new dresser. =D and that's another thing. honestly i don't get it with these older people and everything having to be done in the morning. sigh. anywaz there's nothing wrong sleeping till 10am. its the hols for goodness sake. i mean ok i know there's only 4 more days to get everything done but come on..tell me to rest and then make me do work, someone please explain this to me..

vinaya wants me to take part in the Christmas musical but doubt i can once school starts and then cant even go for the camp cause of school. sigh. major bummer. and want to go caroling but doubt i can do that either. won't be able to make the practice but i really kinda wanted to cause it'd be the first time, but nevermind this time i shall listen to mommy dearest and not go this year and go next year. and believe you me there's no stopping me next year from going. should be comfortable to be there alone with mom and lesh =) *hehe*

needa to be going, mom wants all the clothes washed and hung by tonight so tomorrow they'd be dry and can be put away. but i just feel like sleeping. didn't sleep much last night. went to bed around 10pm but then was hungry so got up and mom heated up some prata and i had that with whatever it was joy made and then it was off to bed around 1130pm and then i slept but kept having to go to the bathroom so yeah not much sleep and then the last i went was around 540am and after that i couldn't sleep and i knew that if i did fall asleep i wouldn't be able to sleep much cause the alarm would sound in an hours time, so i just kinda laid there but then around not sure what time i finally did fall asleep, about 20min before the alarm would go off. hahaha!! talk about your perfect timing!! then when the alarm went off neither me nor my mom could wake up so we decided to let it snooze till 7am then we woke up. and honestly i didn't feel like going to church this morning. felt more like staying home and sleeping. but in the end i went and guess it was ok but came home and crashed out till i think 5pm. but then we only came back home after 1pm. haha!! so not much but still something better then nothing. but now im sleepy again, think its all that medicine. sigh. kk clothes are done so gona hang those then its off to bed for me. nitey-nite.

Today sucks. went to see the doc today and yeah got tons of medicine and antibiotics and what not. sigh. then from there went over to NTUC to buy groceries. met the neighbour at the counter and then we all came back together so when we got back i took some of my medicine and went to lie down and mom talked to the neighbor lady. then when the neighbor left my sis came back and then mom went to lay down and i started on my room. its a total mess from yesterday, been clearing everything out to re-arrange my room hopefully can make it more spacious so yeah everything is everywhere but just until the shelves can be put up.

suppose to be cleaning and yeah was until mom woke and saw me laying down and then i got in trouble for not cleaning cause she wants the kitchen cleaned and the claundy done and the chicken fried cause my sis came home complaing hungry. sigh. but what to do?? nothing just either listen or ignore and right now im choosing to ignore. mean rude whatever i honestly don't care right now cause im that frustrated with her!! anywaz room needs cleaning so yeah i'll do that but that's about it. talk about wrong timing and what not but sigh. still!!

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Nothing much going on except for studying and doing more work then i ever have in my entire life. honestly speaking i've never worked so hard for any subject before, and i've never stressed over one as much as i do this one. and worse part is i have no clue as to why. weird...

had this really weird dream last night and kinda freaked me this morning into not wanting to take the train to school today. and when i got to school i learned that shuxin saw a dead dog that was run over by a car i believe. i honestly and seriously feel like im developing a phobia of taking the train. its like im so afraid of what will happen and with jurong east getting from bad to worse, im scared and all panicky like you wouldn't believe!! sounds stupid i know but cant help the feeling. no matter how much i try to unfold and figure out all that surrounds me, i can't seem too. its confusing and fustrating but...i know its for a reason. i mean if Man could unlock the so called secrets of the universe and what not, what would the world come to?? chaos comes to mind. sigh. but seriously, if only we could, i'd try to figure out what and why is it that we can experience de'jeeva and what not. get certain feelings and emotions and see things in our heads and then have it become a reality. its like your soul literally leaves your body and teleports itself to the furture and leaves you standing there to watch the whole thing. a thrid party, an outsider to your very own body. weird?? abnormal?? or very normal just that there's no one to speak aloud about what they experience or feel. thinking that this is jsut some kinda thinkg that can just be pushed aside and not given a second thought. sigh. can't make people talk or think even though you never know who is the one who's just bursting to tell something to someone yet there's no one there to listen.

and speaking about no one to listen, that gets me thinking, how many people are pushed aside and not even given a second thought?? how many people are there who just want someone to talk to or who'd listen to them, but unfortunetly there's no one ever there and when there is, its not sincere nor is it that they want to listen to you in the first place. and im not tripping over anything or anyone but yeah it really got me to think. there's so many things that i wish to talk to someone about, anyone. just someone who'll listen, but never found that nd have kept quiet for so long that now that there are people who are willing to listen and not judge i feel so weird and ackward to appoarch and tell them all i feel and think. and even when i want to once the time comes i just cant bring myself to say anything. and i don't know why, the only thing i can think of is because i've kept quiet and have figured so much in my head that i cant seem to convey that out to words and haha to become logical and systematic in thought.

noticed so many times that i've talked but its i talk and the other listens but not much of any help cause its like i talk and yeah solve everything by going on and on and that person who doesn't even need to listen will be like, probably laughing at me for basically just talking nonesensically and not making any sense. but not much can really be done so yeah, just deal!! hahaha!!

probably not the greatest of an ending but guess when you read everything and then go through it again you come to realize that even though it still sucks, you come to except things just the way they are and they way that the unfold and reveal themselves. even though its not the way you'd want to to be. =D its the right way and the only way. =)

Just finished doing the homework and now tired like you wouldn't believe. sigh. but what to do?? no choice just do what can be done and hand that up, but so confusing and yeah don't really know how to do but at least i tried what i know and did what i think is right and hopefully that works out well. sigh. what to do?? nothing. absolutely nothing... sigh.

Hey people, please comment on my new layout tell me what you like and what you don't and what you think i should change. lolx!! took me a long time just to get this but still working on it so feedback would be great. thanks!! =D

Can't believe i messed up the CT, sigh, but it was kinda tough. tougher then the other past papers, but then again im to blame for not studying and sleeping most the day but heck cramps hurt. =) lolx!!

anywaz, not much going on, CT's over and exam on next friday along with the release of NP exam results 2.1!! sigh. why all on the same day?? to give us students more pressure. =D... =( but what to do?? just hope i don't do that badly. sigh.

not much going on lately, actually in a way there's been too much going on. haven't been doing much of anything but for some reason just feel so totally drained and yet the lawyer hasn't called or anything and im soo sick of chasing after him. i mean come on, it's your job to get this done and you sit on your butt!! damn annoying!! but what to do?? call and he's not there or he's busy and stuff, worse is when he's in the court room. sigh. kk enough about this, the more i talk about it or anything, it just fustrates me. argh!!

for some reason been thinking and feeling like reading one of shakespeare books, but have no clue why though. Tempest!! lolx!! weird but when i look at his work and writings its like..he's such a master at it. his plays really are a work of art and have become novels, many of them in fact i think all of them!! the language catches my interest the most. the form and the eloquence of it all. so formal yet so barbaric. very appealing!! maybe im weird or maybe given the ability to appreciate things of ancient times. appealing i find that none-the-less its all to find of one but yet to none as well. lolx!! that kinda makes more sense in my head but after writing and now reading it back, its a little confusing, but no worries for all my days to come i shall understand the ways in which my mind works. particular as it may seem its a maze full of ideas and thoughts all woven and weaved so tightly that i myself find it tiring to unwind, yet never once boring to slowly undo the knots. i just seem to find it interesting and yeah amazing. kinda like one of those never-ending stories.

just finshed dawing the graph for the formal report which i just remembered so yeah, kinda lost my train of thought and im too lazy to read back through and get back on so im just gonna leave it be as is and probably continue later. if things in my head are continuous then why not that of my writing for what's in my head?? tomorrow shall be a new thought, of a continuation of what is. =D