Judgement Day

Nothing special about this post just thought of talking about the one thing that i dreaded for the longest time, well actually it wasn't that long of a time but because it was so precious to me and vital a day just felt like eternity. anywaz, it's been three years since judgment day, three years ago this very day 22.02.03 that was a good day for me, or shall i say evening. and right now its a good one too. i mean yeah its not exactly ideal and all but it's as good as it can get for the moment.

this just might be back-dated to i have no idea what day, but i just put in the title then and am writing this now. haha!! hope that made sense to you people. still wonder if anyone really reads this, doubt it so yeah whatever! =D

now back to my judgement day! it was alwaz so passive the way it was written and expressed but when i read back on it and really start to ponder i realize how deep it was, how much i longed for the day and yet ironically how much i was scared and didn't ever want the day to come. scared and frightened i was, rejection, betrayal, mocking...everything....just scared and fearful of it all. am i still? no! not at all...i've past that day and have now arrived at the future of that day and i am glad that i went through it because the grass is so much more greener on this side!! =p it's a combination!!! haha!! i LOVE the moon!!! my moon....judgement is over and believe me after that one anything else that's thrown at me is much, excuse me, so much easier to handle! i can face anything i can do anything i can be anyone!! i can have it all!! the world and beyond...no limitations for anything, it's like i own the world!! and so much more!! its a great feeling and to know that it went the way i wanted it too and everything! i didn't expect that but then how many of us really are confident with high self-esteem? not many...especially not me! honestly, i felt like my question was going to be probed at...i felt like it would have been laughed at and mocked...i felt like it would have suffered from ridicule and so much more...but it didn't; i thought it did at first but then when my head cleared and i read through everything again i realized that my prayers were answered and i felt like it was just meant to be such....it was suppose to be that way....messed up but still true to the answer i seeked and desired...i got it!!! i got it and am still receiving...more and more everyday...and i am so thankful!! so very thankful to everyone and anyone who played a part in it and well yeah..thanks!! thank you for everything!! for the right answer, the treatment, the ease, the peace just everything...perfect timing..perfect beautiful timing.....couldn't have asked for it any better and i thank God for it....everything was perfect just like His plan for me..perfectly beautiful!!! =D

now it's bedtime and i needa get some sleep so im not late for work tomorrow...sigh cleaning 6D TTSH....needa pack and get outta there before renovations start....cyaz!! gdnite!