hard to escape, tried numerous times and yet none of them worked. life is so stress-filled its amazing and ironic that the young cant wait to grow up and here the grown-ups are longing for their youth. sigh. personally i find it too taxing, growing up that is. the older you get the heavier the weight on your shoulders and the starting weight depends on each individual's life. i hate responibility, well not exactly hate but its not exactly a walk in the park. sigh.
18 years of no worries or burdens and now its all dumped right there and it aint moving to anywhere anytime soon. man, to think in just one instant on that day it all changed. matured beyond years capable at that time. and yet men are raises to become the "head" of a house. sometimes i wonder if its really that they're raised to be or just by nature they take that role. i mean when parents raise their kinds i doubt there's any main differences between how they raise a daughter compared to a son?? o.O??? i doesnt know!! haahaha =p
watched the Da Vinci Code like a couple of weeks ago. and found that contrary to what everyone is saying, I LOVED THE MOVIE!!! hehe =p
it had a great plot and storyline. a really good "who-done-it" murder mystery movie, yes religion - mainly christianity was at expense and placed in a questionable state but only the faithless will question. a religion is a belief and a relationship one makes with God, therefore who am i to question? i do not doubt His love and that's all that is necessary for a Christian. love plants itself in one's heart and roots from there to spread.
loved the whole history vibe it had to it. kinda happy that i like history and was able to understand what was going on. lolx! but not everything i can comprehend so yeah gonna have to read up on some stuff and double check hehe. kk tv time!!!! =D
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Monday, June 12, 2006
Reality Check
Depression is just a state of mind, just like fustration and all those other kinda stuff. sigh. its like i feel something and can't express it. angry and fustrated, upset!! more in disbelief then anything else. can't understand and just dont get it. why am i not understood or believed?? over-reaction! ha! one simple compound word...starting to hate that word man. so lost my mood for like everything. graduation is just on wednesday and yet im excited yet bleah! but at least i get away from work for a couple of days. but then again i love work, hate the agency, can't stand some of the people, well more like just one person. so thankful its just a few more weeks then bye bye. unfortunate part is that that person wants a job here, applying for an opening and there's one. sigh. anyone but him would be great but i doubt it. i really do. but still. sigh.
kk dont wanna think about it too much so im off to get some sleep. need it haven't had a good rest in the longest time these past few days.
kk dont wanna think about it too much so im off to get some sleep. need it haven't had a good rest in the longest time these past few days.
Friday, May 26, 2006
TG
What does that mean?? i myself still figuring that out. well i know what it stands for but what it means to me is hard to say.
actaully wanted to type here but just now my mom came in so mood kinda changed, gonna be getting a headache soon, nag nag nag...forever man. sigh.
nevermind, let me figure out what it means first then maybe i'll type it here for you to read... hmm?? maybe...maybe....
but i know one thing, cant help watch or look or wait or worst still be in the workshop most of the time..... i so needa gather my thoughts then sort them all out by priority but mabumby stands alone that's for sure....where do the others like TG fit im still figuring that out....or should i say debating?? sigh...i don't know...
actaully wanted to type here but just now my mom came in so mood kinda changed, gonna be getting a headache soon, nag nag nag...forever man. sigh.
nevermind, let me figure out what it means first then maybe i'll type it here for you to read... hmm?? maybe...maybe....
but i know one thing, cant help watch or look or wait or worst still be in the workshop most of the time..... i so needa gather my thoughts then sort them all out by priority but mabumby stands alone that's for sure....where do the others like TG fit im still figuring that out....or should i say debating?? sigh...i don't know...
Monday, May 08, 2006
Sydney
Just came back from sydney this past saturday. lolx left on monday for a business trip, needed to be certified to continue with the job im currently doing. it was fun. the plane ride was a little bumpy, there was turbulence man, but overall a good ride. watched Big Momma's House 2 then fell asleep lolx!! reached sydney at like 6am and was picked up by one of the directors of baxter, mr. martin and he took us to have coffee and get something to eat cause andy didnt wake me to have breakfast in the plane. after breakfast he took us over to training and that's where we met vinh (he's from vietnam). then he told us to get in his car and he drove us to his place because he needed to pick up his daughter and take her to school. lolx school starts at about 9am there and ends at like 3pm.
the weather was beautiful!! nice and cool but cold at night haha. training was from about 10am to 430pm and then we were taken back to our hotel. since it was really dark out at like 7pm (looked like 11pm) we decided to order room service and watch a movie. just like heaven totally recommended by me to watch!!!
the hotel was pretty nice as well but was mainly there only to bath and sleep? lolx!! was out most of the evenings, taken for dinner by our trainer and director(s). but overall the weather and the scenery is totally breath-taking...anywaz the second day was pretty much the same except for Charlie picking us up in the morning (he is one of the directors of Baxter in sydney). he drove us over to Baxter to check out the place and show us around. the place is freakin' huge!!! AND it was the first time i got to sit in a Honda-CRV (my dream car!!!!! ah...so cool and nice lolx!!) then it was off to training and then again sent back to the hotel to have a quick shower then we went with vihn and charlie for dinner at this one italian restaurant. the servings are so big!! but good man. first time i got to eat oysters. hehe!!
kinda went on like this for the rest of the week except for thursday vihn took us to macquiere mall, again it was huge!! man the more i was like there walking around the more and more i missed home man...everyone was so friendly and nice and the weather and the space!! the open space and fields and sky with the sun. man felt so sad to leave. friday we ventured into the city on our own. probably not the greatest given the fact of everything that happened which i shall not type out here..
anywaz reached the hotel late on friday, which means that i slept late and then overslept the next morning. missed my cab which was suppose to be there at 5am and i was suppose to be at the airport at like 6am but i only woke up at like 6am and panicked like nobody's business!! totally freaked me out man. then it was like total rush and was so thankful for packing friday evening after returning back from training.
anywaz reached the airport just in time to check-in and then just nice got the plane. so thankful we didnt miss it. would have been totally screwed if we did. the ride back was a total disater but again shall not type that here, so not nice. lolx!! actually just don't wanna talk about it nor remember it, not a good experience at all!! anywaz got back and now its busy busy busy. sigh....
=D
the weather was beautiful!! nice and cool but cold at night haha. training was from about 10am to 430pm and then we were taken back to our hotel. since it was really dark out at like 7pm (looked like 11pm) we decided to order room service and watch a movie. just like heaven totally recommended by me to watch!!!
the hotel was pretty nice as well but was mainly there only to bath and sleep? lolx!! was out most of the evenings, taken for dinner by our trainer and director(s). but overall the weather and the scenery is totally breath-taking...anywaz the second day was pretty much the same except for Charlie picking us up in the morning (he is one of the directors of Baxter in sydney). he drove us over to Baxter to check out the place and show us around. the place is freakin' huge!!! AND it was the first time i got to sit in a Honda-CRV (my dream car!!!!! ah...so cool and nice lolx!!) then it was off to training and then again sent back to the hotel to have a quick shower then we went with vihn and charlie for dinner at this one italian restaurant. the servings are so big!! but good man. first time i got to eat oysters. hehe!!
kinda went on like this for the rest of the week except for thursday vihn took us to macquiere mall, again it was huge!! man the more i was like there walking around the more and more i missed home man...everyone was so friendly and nice and the weather and the space!! the open space and fields and sky with the sun. man felt so sad to leave. friday we ventured into the city on our own. probably not the greatest given the fact of everything that happened which i shall not type out here..
anywaz reached the hotel late on friday, which means that i slept late and then overslept the next morning. missed my cab which was suppose to be there at 5am and i was suppose to be at the airport at like 6am but i only woke up at like 6am and panicked like nobody's business!! totally freaked me out man. then it was like total rush and was so thankful for packing friday evening after returning back from training.
anywaz reached the airport just in time to check-in and then just nice got the plane. so thankful we didnt miss it. would have been totally screwed if we did. the ride back was a total disater but again shall not type that here, so not nice. lolx!! actually just don't wanna talk about it nor remember it, not a good experience at all!! anywaz got back and now its busy busy busy. sigh....
=D
Monday, April 24, 2006
Update
Been yet another while since i've last written anything here. trying to get myself to write more often but just can't get myself to actually do that.
again nothing much really going on. im just sitting here right now typing this, typing whatever comes to my head. doubt this will be long cause im like chatting while i write this. haven't really been thinking much so yeah no thoughts or anything for today. not that there's nothing on my mind its just that its like so much and i don't know how to get it all out and into words. easier said than done. sigh.
lately things don't surprise me that much, nothing really amazing going on lately either. heard about some stuff but eh...sigh. can't wait for friday, amelia's 21st birthday, finally get to catch up with shy and jia ling. been wanting to talk to them but its like, i don't wanna talk on the phone for long and when im online its like they're not. sigh.
just last sunday was achen's last service with this church in singapore. kinda sad to see him leave, never seen anyone so involved with the youth before like he was, never really seen anyone just say yes and encourage and never say 'no'. wonderful man, a cheerful, joyous man. i still remember the first time i met him was here at the house the day my dad's body was brought back. he just stood there and when i came out smiled at me and shook my hand.
he just smiled.....
april's coming to an end soon, and that means the months are going by fast and they're gonna be getting faster in just another week. everything is counted, everything has a time and a number. don't ask too much you don't wanna know.
i miss the normal days. when things were perdictable and i knew what i was doing and who i would be with for the days to come, but now its like all up in the air at all times and im not liking it very much. nothing ventured, nothing gained. i don't really like that saying when its applicable to me. anyway, i just had something pop up in my head so gonna go and write that all down. for some reason i find it not meant to be posted here. =D hehe!! if you wanna know (shy, jia ling) just sms me or msn ok?!
bye-bye!!!
again nothing much really going on. im just sitting here right now typing this, typing whatever comes to my head. doubt this will be long cause im like chatting while i write this. haven't really been thinking much so yeah no thoughts or anything for today. not that there's nothing on my mind its just that its like so much and i don't know how to get it all out and into words. easier said than done. sigh.
lately things don't surprise me that much, nothing really amazing going on lately either. heard about some stuff but eh...sigh. can't wait for friday, amelia's 21st birthday, finally get to catch up with shy and jia ling. been wanting to talk to them but its like, i don't wanna talk on the phone for long and when im online its like they're not. sigh.
just last sunday was achen's last service with this church in singapore. kinda sad to see him leave, never seen anyone so involved with the youth before like he was, never really seen anyone just say yes and encourage and never say 'no'. wonderful man, a cheerful, joyous man. i still remember the first time i met him was here at the house the day my dad's body was brought back. he just stood there and when i came out smiled at me and shook my hand.
he just smiled.....
april's coming to an end soon, and that means the months are going by fast and they're gonna be getting faster in just another week. everything is counted, everything has a time and a number. don't ask too much you don't wanna know.
i miss the normal days. when things were perdictable and i knew what i was doing and who i would be with for the days to come, but now its like all up in the air at all times and im not liking it very much. nothing ventured, nothing gained. i don't really like that saying when its applicable to me. anyway, i just had something pop up in my head so gonna go and write that all down. for some reason i find it not meant to be posted here. =D hehe!! if you wanna know (shy, jia ling) just sms me or msn ok?!
bye-bye!!!
Sunday, April 09, 2006
New
Everything is new now. new layout, new year, new job new everything. just hope it stays as new after a few months. lolx!!!
so far work is a little boring. i started on monday april 3rd, had training for like the first 2 days after that it was to the field. did a couple PM at NUH and then 3 pumps at TTSH. i miss is there, les is the same and kasturi as well. everything with those two was just do. colin was the same. miss those days of attachment there. stressed about it so much but now i miss it like crazy. anywaz im working with baxter healthcare and i was employed for their upgrading project. heck a jobs a job, i mean it does get boring and stressful but overall it is fun. i love the actual working on the pumps. taking them apart and then putting them back together, love the sense of doing something right when i actually get to repair and rectify a problem with it. so cool. but the fact of knowing what's exactly wrong with the equipment aint that simple. it takes experience to know those faults.
miss poly life, miss my frenz more then anything!! we so needa meet up and hang out!!!!! that's an order not a suggestion. lolx!! =p but yeah miss that laughing and the joking around just talking crap and laughing till my stomach hurts. =D
not really in the mood to write out a proper entry or anything. not like anything major's gone on. today is Palm Sunday...and this is passion week !!!! which means service throughout the week as well as a holiday ( i know its a sad day but its a day off from work but its spent in church) and then there's Easter!!! i love this holiday. easter and christmas. the birth and ressurection of Christ)
guess i'l end it here. maybe i'l post my long entry eventually. not done with it yet but still debating whether or not to post it publicly...have to check with shy and jL first tho. lolx!!
gdnite!!
so far work is a little boring. i started on monday april 3rd, had training for like the first 2 days after that it was to the field. did a couple PM at NUH and then 3 pumps at TTSH. i miss is there, les is the same and kasturi as well. everything with those two was just do. colin was the same. miss those days of attachment there. stressed about it so much but now i miss it like crazy. anywaz im working with baxter healthcare and i was employed for their upgrading project. heck a jobs a job, i mean it does get boring and stressful but overall it is fun. i love the actual working on the pumps. taking them apart and then putting them back together, love the sense of doing something right when i actually get to repair and rectify a problem with it. so cool. but the fact of knowing what's exactly wrong with the equipment aint that simple. it takes experience to know those faults.
miss poly life, miss my frenz more then anything!! we so needa meet up and hang out!!!!! that's an order not a suggestion. lolx!! =p but yeah miss that laughing and the joking around just talking crap and laughing till my stomach hurts. =D
not really in the mood to write out a proper entry or anything. not like anything major's gone on. today is Palm Sunday...and this is passion week !!!! which means service throughout the week as well as a holiday ( i know its a sad day but its a day off from work but its spent in church) and then there's Easter!!! i love this holiday. easter and christmas. the birth and ressurection of Christ)
guess i'l end it here. maybe i'l post my long entry eventually. not done with it yet but still debating whether or not to post it publicly...have to check with shy and jL first tho. lolx!!
gdnite!!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Bored
Bored outta my mind but heck it's a short break that i get. anywaz had an interview with Baxter on tuesday and from what was told to me...i got the job and i start in April. training first then yeah. hehe cant wait. im all excited now!!
gonna be learning how to swim..so needa learn that. like hello!! cant swim hahaha lame man.. =D actually im more afraid of drowning then anything else....kinda scared of water. haha weird right?? but i love the water when it comes to bathing hahahaha!!
nothing much going on nowadays....guess once work starts it's gonna be like no posts for a long while but there might be one in the first or second week....hahaha!!
but for now its bedtime for me...gdnite!!!
gonna be learning how to swim..so needa learn that. like hello!! cant swim hahaha lame man.. =D actually im more afraid of drowning then anything else....kinda scared of water. haha weird right?? but i love the water when it comes to bathing hahahaha!!
nothing much going on nowadays....guess once work starts it's gonna be like no posts for a long while but there might be one in the first or second week....hahaha!!
but for now its bedtime for me...gdnite!!!
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
IAP Presentation
Today was IAP students presentation day so yea i had to present today. it was pretty ok, i mean was a little nervous about the content and such but i guess it was actually ok. anywaz first was shawn, then hairul, then jia ling, then efin, then deon and finally me!!! haha!! not very nice to go after those two....scary...anywaz i just went up there and began and then yea i think it went pretty good. the only problem was fooL and his stupid questions about strain gauges....WTH!!! really don't get it with him and strain gauges...same thing..exactly the same thing happned for FYP!!!! sigh
but after all presented it was fun just hanging out with everyone again. we all had lunch over at the cafe then parted from there. some went back to BME and some left from there. most of us went back. paid for prom then left.
the before eating and after presentation photo-taking session was fun. haha lionel made a literal 360° hahahaha took amelia and shy, myself and jia ling, vicky and yiting, shuxin and elmi...then i forgot who. hahaha but it was fun and apparently someone!!! yea everyone knows who decided to take a video of my presentation so yea...sigh...hopefully its nice...and hopefully all the pics turn out nice...there's one wtih us girls and jonathan our junior. he's nice man...gonna miss everyone there. lecturers and classmates....classmates more then anything else...but there are alwaz reunions just hopefully they're singapore based and we can All go for it. hahaha
anywaz now at home, bored as usual...and kinda hungry..... o.o....kk gonna go ran-sack for food!!! bye bye!!! =D
but after all presented it was fun just hanging out with everyone again. we all had lunch over at the cafe then parted from there. some went back to BME and some left from there. most of us went back. paid for prom then left.
the before eating and after presentation photo-taking session was fun. haha lionel made a literal 360° hahahaha took amelia and shy, myself and jia ling, vicky and yiting, shuxin and elmi...then i forgot who. hahaha but it was fun and apparently someone!!! yea everyone knows who decided to take a video of my presentation so yea...sigh...hopefully its nice...and hopefully all the pics turn out nice...there's one wtih us girls and jonathan our junior. he's nice man...gonna miss everyone there. lecturers and classmates....classmates more then anything else...but there are alwaz reunions just hopefully they're singapore based and we can All go for it. hahaha
anywaz now at home, bored as usual...and kinda hungry..... o.o....kk gonna go ran-sack for food!!! bye bye!!! =D
We've graduated!!!!!!
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Happy Chinese New Year!!
Okay i know it aint exactly new year yet but heck i aint gonna be writing for a while. so busy and just argued with my mom. she doesn't get it man. i plan my time for me to cater to me myself..not her and everyone else....so troublesome and yet im anti-social. heck!!
anywaz its the year of the dog. dogs are cute...i love doggies...anywaz long holiday!!!! im happy for that but man its gonna be cut short because of final report. can't believe attachment is gonna be ending soon. so gonna miss it and everyone there. sigh. final report and then presentation..more worried of the presentation then anything else.
kk its time for dinner. lolx!!! then bed tomorrow there's church.. =D gdnite!!!
anywaz its the year of the dog. dogs are cute...i love doggies...anywaz long holiday!!!! im happy for that but man its gonna be cut short because of final report. can't believe attachment is gonna be ending soon. so gonna miss it and everyone there. sigh. final report and then presentation..more worried of the presentation then anything else.
kk its time for dinner. lolx!!! then bed tomorrow there's church.. =D gdnite!!!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
MCs
Hate those two letters....had way too many lately...sigh but what can i do?? hmm....im bored right now. tomorrow its back to TTSH yay!!! bully lesley!!!! hehe!! no but really and honestly i enjoy and love working there, its great really!! dont want it to end man. especially so quickly. just like how many more weeks left?? 5 weeks!! just 5 weeks that's all.... =( im so sad!!!! i needa get those videos from lesley and put them in my hardrive for memories....sigh.. hahahaha!!! they're damn hilarious!!! i love the ones that i take...im just good..what can i say! haha!!
sigh now sine everything is coming to an end its like yeah final report...just finished putting in the extra headers for my chapters but havent written anything yet, let alone do the corrections. the worst part of everything is that after IAP is over...then that means poly is over and that's even more sad....i LOVE my class...had a blast man. all the lame jokes and the crap talking and the laughing..the laughing i'l never forget or the squeezing into the left and then zul trying to jump inside. hahaha!! freaky but damn hilarious or when he posed infront of the lift door from the inside as though he was squashed inside. hahahaha!!! think he gave that guy on the third floor a shock man. hahahahah!!! think that was on our way home from BRE lab. sigh. hopefully those memories never leave me but stay and more get added on. =D
kk i needa go shower and sleep got work tomorrow. hahaha!!! gdnite!!!
sigh now sine everything is coming to an end its like yeah final report...just finished putting in the extra headers for my chapters but havent written anything yet, let alone do the corrections. the worst part of everything is that after IAP is over...then that means poly is over and that's even more sad....i LOVE my class...had a blast man. all the lame jokes and the crap talking and the laughing..the laughing i'l never forget or the squeezing into the left and then zul trying to jump inside. hahaha!! freaky but damn hilarious or when he posed infront of the lift door from the inside as though he was squashed inside. hahahaha!!! think he gave that guy on the third floor a shock man. hahahahah!!! think that was on our way home from BRE lab. sigh. hopefully those memories never leave me but stay and more get added on. =D
kk i needa go shower and sleep got work tomorrow. hahaha!!! gdnite!!!
Monday, January 02, 2006
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Ok so i know that today is not exactly the 1st but heck cut me some slack here. anywaz, new year was fun, celebrated zack's birthday on the 31st and then rode home in the back of des' truck, with uncle thomas driving of course then came home toasted at midnight then talked to shuxin for a while then went to bed. didn't really get to sleep late though cause my mom woke me up for breakfast, well i mean for good reasons but still...sigh...anywaz let me tell the whole story of my christmas come new year.
started with me wanting to take part in the christmas show at church, so i did!! yay im so glad i did it was fun and hilarious!! ivan was really good as achen and then the little sheep were cute but kinda...sigh...did their own things..lolx!!!
christmas day everyone came over here to our place for dinner, but i think something was wrong with the prawn sambal...everyone suffered man...except me i was pretty ok..miraculously!! but then on the 26th it was at aunty shirly's..dinner there. so we went oh i forgot to mention that on the 25th night my wrist started hurting again after carrying the jug of orange juice, sigh. then i took my severe pain tablet for that and went to sleep and slept for pretty much all of the 26th, woke at like 3pm i think?? hahaha!! new record for me man!!
we went over to aunty shirly's in the evening and i ate a bit there...wasn't really that hungry though. then it was like yeah went to the girl's room and just sat there and talked to dino and ji, didn't wanna play with the little ones cause i knew i wouldnt be able to like carry or anything cause of the pain so yeah didnt even wanna start. but we didnt stay late either cause i needed to take my medicine. sigh
then on the morning of 27th, early morning i had really bad stomach pains...ambulance was called and i was rushed to TTSH, yupz same place i do my IAP!! for care. lolx!! can you just imagine that i was there suffering in pain and vomitting for 10hours before there was a bed that was avalible for me...sigh...doc wanted to ward me cause he said i had a blood infection. sigh. but overall i suffered from Gasterointestinal flu.
les, vic, kasturi and johnny came to visit like everyday..haha that was nice and les and vic came like twice everyday!! that was really nice. overall my stay was ok...but still i suffered...and not all the nurses are nice..some are really really mean..=(
worse was the drips..damn painful and yes my hands still swollen from it..and bruised!! in two places!!! sigh. the first day i couldnt eat any solids..by the second i could take porridge and soft foods by the third i could have solids..but no lactose!!! and this lady kept asking if i wanted milo..sigh...what can i say??
achan visited twice, aunty deepa (a.k.a dr. anna) came everyday in the morning and the thrid day she bought a book for me, the 1 Minute Bible for Students. i love it!!! then my family was there pretty much throughout...uhm...church youth visited me, philin, trisha and vinaya..they gave me a stuff bear from Precious Thots, its so soft and nice, and there's a beautiful card with it. les and kasturi and vicky came with a soft flower that has a sad face saying Missing You, and they came with a basket of fresh flowers and fruits..the fruits were good...the third day then gave me a get well card...its also another beautiful card...with a big surprise that shocked me!! hahaha!! aunty jolly and uncle alex and jovita came to visit me as well. all my collegues came and saw me...that was nice of them. some even brought me food and others just really made me laugh...espescially colin...no one could top him man!!! haahahah!!!! that was like the funniest thing i ever heard in like the longest time!!! that cheered me up for the day.
the food was ok, but the begining when i couldnt have solids it was disguisting!! mushy food...eeeewwwww!!!! the bed was kinda hard...not very comfortable either..man am i glad to be home!!! only sad part is once i came home next day ended up at the dentists' thinking i needed a filling to find out that i had an ear infection!! sigh!! but thankfully it was the lobe and not the inner ear. so yeah got medicine for that and because of the antibiotic i had to get up early to have breakfast in order to take it. sigh.
cant wear earrings for about a week...so sad..i love earrings...hahahahah!!!! uhm..what else?? i think that's about all then. oh yeah..now my mom's totally on my case about eating proper meals at proper times...major sigh...but then again..yeah man!! i dont wanna suffer like that again!!
kk time for dinner!!! cyaz!!! hopefully can post more frequently..hahahaha!!!!! think jia ling and shy get bored coming in and there's no changes and nothing to read about IAP..hahahahaha!!! but uhm uhm....you guys should know right? =p
started with me wanting to take part in the christmas show at church, so i did!! yay im so glad i did it was fun and hilarious!! ivan was really good as achen and then the little sheep were cute but kinda...sigh...did their own things..lolx!!!
christmas day everyone came over here to our place for dinner, but i think something was wrong with the prawn sambal...everyone suffered man...except me i was pretty ok..miraculously!! but then on the 26th it was at aunty shirly's..dinner there. so we went oh i forgot to mention that on the 25th night my wrist started hurting again after carrying the jug of orange juice, sigh. then i took my severe pain tablet for that and went to sleep and slept for pretty much all of the 26th, woke at like 3pm i think?? hahaha!! new record for me man!!
we went over to aunty shirly's in the evening and i ate a bit there...wasn't really that hungry though. then it was like yeah went to the girl's room and just sat there and talked to dino and ji, didn't wanna play with the little ones cause i knew i wouldnt be able to like carry or anything cause of the pain so yeah didnt even wanna start. but we didnt stay late either cause i needed to take my medicine. sigh
then on the morning of 27th, early morning i had really bad stomach pains...ambulance was called and i was rushed to TTSH, yupz same place i do my IAP!! for care. lolx!! can you just imagine that i was there suffering in pain and vomitting for 10hours before there was a bed that was avalible for me...sigh...doc wanted to ward me cause he said i had a blood infection. sigh. but overall i suffered from Gasterointestinal flu.
les, vic, kasturi and johnny came to visit like everyday..haha that was nice and les and vic came like twice everyday!! that was really nice. overall my stay was ok...but still i suffered...and not all the nurses are nice..some are really really mean..=(
worse was the drips..damn painful and yes my hands still swollen from it..and bruised!! in two places!!! sigh. the first day i couldnt eat any solids..by the second i could take porridge and soft foods by the third i could have solids..but no lactose!!! and this lady kept asking if i wanted milo..sigh...what can i say??
achan visited twice, aunty deepa (a.k.a dr. anna) came everyday in the morning and the thrid day she bought a book for me, the 1 Minute Bible for Students. i love it!!! then my family was there pretty much throughout...uhm...church youth visited me, philin, trisha and vinaya..they gave me a stuff bear from Precious Thots, its so soft and nice, and there's a beautiful card with it. les and kasturi and vicky came with a soft flower that has a sad face saying Missing You, and they came with a basket of fresh flowers and fruits..the fruits were good...the third day then gave me a get well card...its also another beautiful card...with a big surprise that shocked me!! hahaha!! aunty jolly and uncle alex and jovita came to visit me as well. all my collegues came and saw me...that was nice of them. some even brought me food and others just really made me laugh...espescially colin...no one could top him man!!! haahahah!!!! that was like the funniest thing i ever heard in like the longest time!!! that cheered me up for the day.
the food was ok, but the begining when i couldnt have solids it was disguisting!! mushy food...eeeewwwww!!!! the bed was kinda hard...not very comfortable either..man am i glad to be home!!! only sad part is once i came home next day ended up at the dentists' thinking i needed a filling to find out that i had an ear infection!! sigh!! but thankfully it was the lobe and not the inner ear. so yeah got medicine for that and because of the antibiotic i had to get up early to have breakfast in order to take it. sigh.
cant wear earrings for about a week...so sad..i love earrings...hahahahah!!!! uhm..what else?? i think that's about all then. oh yeah..now my mom's totally on my case about eating proper meals at proper times...major sigh...but then again..yeah man!! i dont wanna suffer like that again!!
kk time for dinner!!! cyaz!!! hopefully can post more frequently..hahahaha!!!!! think jia ling and shy get bored coming in and there's no changes and nothing to read about IAP..hahahahaha!!! but uhm uhm....you guys should know right? =p
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Hiatus
Been like a month since i've last written anything and a lot as happened. needa see how can i place pics and videos in here. got a few good ones...damn hilarious too =D but now i needa watch my back whenever lesley or vicky is holding a cam. lolx!!
other then that enjoying IAP so so so so much!! gonna really miss it when i have to leave though. =( muz enjoy fully while i can!!! lolx!! hmm?? been kinda busy lately with the interim due next week and then with christmas and all. hehe!!! can't wait..rehersals are starting tomorrow for the variety program. and im acutally taking part!!! just pls dont have me be the mother, the frantic pareniod mother...sigh...rather be narrator but i can confirm it'll be taken and by whom. lolx!!
kk i just ordered food and my mom should be deliverying it to me pretty soon...then needa go to bed...becoming more and more like a panda...or maybe worse..sigh..need sleep!!! anywaz tomorrow is shy's and shuxin's bday so gotta stay up to wish them!!
hahaha just added shy online..got yahoo messenger...lolx kinda having fun just playing around with it. sigh...kk bed time...headers are done and im sleepy...gdnite!!
other then that enjoying IAP so so so so much!! gonna really miss it when i have to leave though. =( muz enjoy fully while i can!!! lolx!! hmm?? been kinda busy lately with the interim due next week and then with christmas and all. hehe!!! can't wait..rehersals are starting tomorrow for the variety program. and im acutally taking part!!! just pls dont have me be the mother, the frantic pareniod mother...sigh...rather be narrator but i can confirm it'll be taken and by whom. lolx!!
kk i just ordered food and my mom should be deliverying it to me pretty soon...then needa go to bed...becoming more and more like a panda...or maybe worse..sigh..need sleep!!! anywaz tomorrow is shy's and shuxin's bday so gotta stay up to wish them!!
hahaha just added shy online..got yahoo messenger...lolx kinda having fun just playing around with it. sigh...kk bed time...headers are done and im sleepy...gdnite!!
Monday, November 14, 2005
The Walls Have Ears
I am the wall!!!
but on a lighter note, IAP totally rox and im having a blast!! =D cool right?? i don't really miss school that much but i do miss my friends! =( jia ling and shy miss you both so much man!!! miss the laughing and talking crap and just hanging out and having a good time. but meeting at hairul's was fun. good to catch up and well we got to talk and laugh and yea meet up then rode in a car that amelia drove and that was a total experience man!! hahaha =p she's too tense but still a good driver man. uhm..nothing much going on..right now me just bored and can't play cause i have my mom lying right here complaining about the light being on. sigh i so needa find time to paint her room and fix that stupid cupboard. actually i would have done it sooner but when i tried that time it kinda collapsed on me and pinned me down. that was hilarious and thank goodness my mom wasn't around or all hell would have broken lose. haha!! =p anywaz im fine it was just funny and well a little painful lolx!!
just last saturday was ja's sweet 16 birthday party. man i wish i had that kinda stuff but then sigh not really my thing either. i mean the music and stuff but not the works...me not so into that big major party stuff. anywaz i was like the only adult to chaperoned a group of 15 and 16 year olds. well minus off that one 12 yr old who so didn't look her age man!! people thought she was me, cause she's very matured for her age. damn cool and sexy man!! and she's 12!!!! T.T don't know what to say man... anywaz since underage drinking wasn't allowed. hehe!! rule made by me thank you thank you thank you!! i know very mature of me to make that rule right?? =p anywaz that real adults all went for a wedding so yeah, me allow cause lionel and rina were only going to be arriving later. so i kinda confiscated all this beer and well...it was just sitting there and its not like i could leave it for the adults to see when the returned so when lionel and rina arrived and rina brought debbie along...we decided to drink tha beer ourselves since we're all of legal age. haha!!! stupid move man!!....the only ones who really drank was me and debbie and the worse it we kinda lost track of how much and turned out we both had about 12 cans each. we were damn high but at least i maintained my composure for surpervising. but man did my head hurt but the good thing is...i fell asleep so damn fast...faster then i probably ever had in my life man!! haha!!
but next morning....major hang-over and major headache....damn major...drank a banana milkshake cause i read somewhere that it helps...sigh..not by much...head kinda hurt all the way sunday and into monday. was advised to drink hot chinese tea...tried it and well feeling better...sigh...me wanna sleep... -.- zzZz
other then that uhm..let's see on friday i was on the phone and well i like queen's bohemian rhapsody and someone decided to sing it to me rather then just send me the song and i ended up laughing my head off and falling off my bed and knocking my head...but i still laughed till my mom came running wondering what the heck the loud sound was and saw me laughing so she knew i probably fell or banged some part of my body somewhere...told her where between breaths and she panicked and i had to put ice on my head which was kinda stupid cause i just had my shower and my hair was all wet....kinda redundant but oh well!! =D
long time since i've blogged and believe you me i got alot to tell....i kinda did a lota stupid things...great to write here and make all of you laugh at my stupidity and clumsiness but well you know me....me forgetful and well i don't remember all. hahaha!! =p but it was funny!!! not short term memory the info just kinda migrated from the front of my mind to the back. hahahaha!!! lame right but heck its late and im sleepy...i have the right to talk nonsensical crap...right?!?!?! of course!!!! =D
kk bed time!!!!! gdnite!!!!! hopefully i can update more frequently...but sigh...kinda busy with IAP and WoW!!! and now my new fav game!!! Text Twist!!!!! yahoo games...go and try it its fun..just now played and my highest score was 26,700!!!! im so happy its a record for me!!! =D kk GDNITE!!!!! =D
but on a lighter note, IAP totally rox and im having a blast!! =D cool right?? i don't really miss school that much but i do miss my friends! =( jia ling and shy miss you both so much man!!! miss the laughing and talking crap and just hanging out and having a good time. but meeting at hairul's was fun. good to catch up and well we got to talk and laugh and yea meet up then rode in a car that amelia drove and that was a total experience man!! hahaha =p she's too tense but still a good driver man. uhm..nothing much going on..right now me just bored and can't play cause i have my mom lying right here complaining about the light being on. sigh i so needa find time to paint her room and fix that stupid cupboard. actually i would have done it sooner but when i tried that time it kinda collapsed on me and pinned me down. that was hilarious and thank goodness my mom wasn't around or all hell would have broken lose. haha!! =p anywaz im fine it was just funny and well a little painful lolx!!
just last saturday was ja's sweet 16 birthday party. man i wish i had that kinda stuff but then sigh not really my thing either. i mean the music and stuff but not the works...me not so into that big major party stuff. anywaz i was like the only adult to chaperoned a group of 15 and 16 year olds. well minus off that one 12 yr old who so didn't look her age man!! people thought she was me, cause she's very matured for her age. damn cool and sexy man!! and she's 12!!!! T.T don't know what to say man... anywaz since underage drinking wasn't allowed. hehe!! rule made by me thank you thank you thank you!! i know very mature of me to make that rule right?? =p anywaz that real adults all went for a wedding so yeah, me allow cause lionel and rina were only going to be arriving later. so i kinda confiscated all this beer and well...it was just sitting there and its not like i could leave it for the adults to see when the returned so when lionel and rina arrived and rina brought debbie along...we decided to drink tha beer ourselves since we're all of legal age. haha!!! stupid move man!!....the only ones who really drank was me and debbie and the worse it we kinda lost track of how much and turned out we both had about 12 cans each. we were damn high but at least i maintained my composure for surpervising. but man did my head hurt but the good thing is...i fell asleep so damn fast...faster then i probably ever had in my life man!! haha!!
but next morning....major hang-over and major headache....damn major...drank a banana milkshake cause i read somewhere that it helps...sigh..not by much...head kinda hurt all the way sunday and into monday. was advised to drink hot chinese tea...tried it and well feeling better...sigh...me wanna sleep... -.- zzZz
other then that uhm..let's see on friday i was on the phone and well i like queen's bohemian rhapsody and someone decided to sing it to me rather then just send me the song and i ended up laughing my head off and falling off my bed and knocking my head...but i still laughed till my mom came running wondering what the heck the loud sound was and saw me laughing so she knew i probably fell or banged some part of my body somewhere...told her where between breaths and she panicked and i had to put ice on my head which was kinda stupid cause i just had my shower and my hair was all wet....kinda redundant but oh well!! =D
long time since i've blogged and believe you me i got alot to tell....i kinda did a lota stupid things...great to write here and make all of you laugh at my stupidity and clumsiness but well you know me....me forgetful and well i don't remember all. hahaha!! =p but it was funny!!! not short term memory the info just kinda migrated from the front of my mind to the back. hahahaha!!! lame right but heck its late and im sleepy...i have the right to talk nonsensical crap...right?!?!?! of course!!!! =D
kk bed time!!!!! gdnite!!!!! hopefully i can update more frequently...but sigh...kinda busy with IAP and WoW!!! and now my new fav game!!! Text Twist!!!!! yahoo games...go and try it its fun..just now played and my highest score was 26,700!!!! im so happy its a record for me!!! =D kk GDNITE!!!!! =D
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Change!!
Feel like changing the color of my layout...aint gonna be changin the layout but so gonna be changing the color theme...pink is just irking me...
today was like so cool...stayed in the hospital till like 7 then left..this week with Mr. Rossli so since he and les use to jam with the guitar and vocals me and vicky joined them. so it was like mr rossli played and then les sang, leader of the band and collin raye's love me. so nice....then i played a little tried to learn stumming but heck just cant seem to get it fully. haha can you imagine staying in the BME center till 7pm..mr rossli left earlier by like 6 something and the three if us left at 7.
the original plan was to just wait out the heavy rain that johnny claimed to be pouring down at 530. so sad, didn't wanna get wet so yeah wait. sigh. so we decided to play since i brought my tunner and lent to les. now just burning all those cranberries songs from the cds i borrowed from her. hahaha i love it there!!!!! =D
thought i'd probably be bored and not enjoy but i am i mean yeah i wish jia ling and shy were there...more fun to talk crap the whole day and just laugh all the time. miss that. but the atmosphere there is great and the people as well. down side...kasturi our admin assistant is going on a 2 week holiday!!!! OM-Goodness...so its like every afternoon we have to sit there and learn everything from her while she teaches us everything we need to know and believe me its alota!!! sigh...kk bed time gdnite!!1 =D
today was like so cool...stayed in the hospital till like 7 then left..this week with Mr. Rossli so since he and les use to jam with the guitar and vocals me and vicky joined them. so it was like mr rossli played and then les sang, leader of the band and collin raye's love me. so nice....then i played a little tried to learn stumming but heck just cant seem to get it fully. haha can you imagine staying in the BME center till 7pm..mr rossli left earlier by like 6 something and the three if us left at 7.
the original plan was to just wait out the heavy rain that johnny claimed to be pouring down at 530. so sad, didn't wanna get wet so yeah wait. sigh. so we decided to play since i brought my tunner and lent to les. now just burning all those cranberries songs from the cds i borrowed from her. hahaha i love it there!!!!! =D
thought i'd probably be bored and not enjoy but i am i mean yeah i wish jia ling and shy were there...more fun to talk crap the whole day and just laugh all the time. miss that. but the atmosphere there is great and the people as well. down side...kasturi our admin assistant is going on a 2 week holiday!!!! OM-Goodness...so its like every afternoon we have to sit there and learn everything from her while she teaches us everything we need to know and believe me its alota!!! sigh...kk bed time gdnite!!1 =D
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Update
Not much been going on...haha yeah right!! uhm where to begin?? first work is great and its fun just that there's alot of...very different characters around lolx!! other then that not much, now just been going around the A&E side and doing defibrillators..sigh..after doing them in general wards im like not too keen to be doing it again in A&E. kinda wanna do more on repairs then PM but apparently there's more PM to be done then repairs or BM...sigh...
last week tues had a little incident after lunch, left hand just went numb and froze, so was taken to TTSH A&E (ironic huh??) and since the doc didn't know what the problem was i was referred to the othopedic and since that doc doesn't know what's wrong either and since it still hurts, cant carry heavy things and cant bend it fast im going to be sent for duplex ultrasound (doppler) tomorrow and then on the 26th im scheduled for EMG (electromyograph; muscle)
but for now im going to write out today's report and then read my book and then sleep...i need sleep...gdnite!!!!
last week tues had a little incident after lunch, left hand just went numb and froze, so was taken to TTSH A&E (ironic huh??) and since the doc didn't know what the problem was i was referred to the othopedic and since that doc doesn't know what's wrong either and since it still hurts, cant carry heavy things and cant bend it fast im going to be sent for duplex ultrasound (doppler) tomorrow and then on the 26th im scheduled for EMG (electromyograph; muscle)
but for now im going to write out today's report and then read my book and then sleep...i need sleep...gdnite!!!!
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Fallen Out
Can you believe that on the first week of IAP i already had a two day MC because i passed out in the train to work, and now i have a 7 day MC from TTSH A&E because of my arm. can you believe it?!?!
it's like, ok les and vic went for commissioning at yew tee then i went to lunch with mr sng, johnny, mr yeow, john and mr david. then after eating and we were having drinks my arm just froze on me, it went numb and i couldn't feel anything and couldn't move it only could feel this sharp pain in my wrist. and as time went it moved up more and more towards the elbow side and the numbness also rose. ED doc said that it's either carpotunnel so a hardned muscle. sigh. have an appointment at clinic B1B next week tues but let's just hope that i don't need surgery and have it removed or cut away. scary thought.
other then that IAP is fun. so far i've done PM for defibs, ECG monitors, baxtor pumps, suction regulators, and lab scales. think i've finally learnt how to use theESA with much confidence. it's just the matter of getting use to the different TO's ESA. apparently john as this system for his. not too sure why and stuff but up to him so ok.
found out that im not exactly the best for admin work, im better off in the workshop and Not the font desk area. haha its like i screw up...still....cant seem to get those phone calls right and all the required details but so far ok. most everyone there is very helpful to help with the calls and the paging and everything.
still can't enter into my webfolder, foo says its cause im only in guest mode cause i haven't logged into NPNET yet...sigh...why so troublesome?? but for now i can't be bothered...i'l settle that over the weekend for now i wanna play WoW....only sad part is im sure to die alota and i can only use a mouse....sigh....how the hell to play like that!!?!? but still its better then not playing at all!!! just needa finish waiting for the patch to download, so slow.
nothing much to really say..nothing really interesting that i can write here but if you wanna hear click on me in msn and i'll tell you something hillarious!!! and then let you laugh at how stupid i can be like all the time!! [some people may write some of the time but not for me, must see individual hahahaahaha!!!!] kk time to play!!! =D
it's like, ok les and vic went for commissioning at yew tee then i went to lunch with mr sng, johnny, mr yeow, john and mr david. then after eating and we were having drinks my arm just froze on me, it went numb and i couldn't feel anything and couldn't move it only could feel this sharp pain in my wrist. and as time went it moved up more and more towards the elbow side and the numbness also rose. ED doc said that it's either carpotunnel so a hardned muscle. sigh. have an appointment at clinic B1B next week tues but let's just hope that i don't need surgery and have it removed or cut away. scary thought.
other then that IAP is fun. so far i've done PM for defibs, ECG monitors, baxtor pumps, suction regulators, and lab scales. think i've finally learnt how to use theESA with much confidence. it's just the matter of getting use to the different TO's ESA. apparently john as this system for his. not too sure why and stuff but up to him so ok.
found out that im not exactly the best for admin work, im better off in the workshop and Not the font desk area. haha its like i screw up...still....cant seem to get those phone calls right and all the required details but so far ok. most everyone there is very helpful to help with the calls and the paging and everything.
still can't enter into my webfolder, foo says its cause im only in guest mode cause i haven't logged into NPNET yet...sigh...why so troublesome?? but for now i can't be bothered...i'l settle that over the weekend for now i wanna play WoW....only sad part is im sure to die alota and i can only use a mouse....sigh....how the hell to play like that!!?!? but still its better then not playing at all!!! just needa finish waiting for the patch to download, so slow.
nothing much to really say..nothing really interesting that i can write here but if you wanna hear click on me in msn and i'll tell you something hillarious!!! and then let you laugh at how stupid i can be like all the time!! [some people may write some of the time but not for me, must see individual hahahaahaha!!!!] kk time to play!!! =D
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
First Day of IAP
Overall it was fun and it was kinda boring. lolx!! September 26th was the first day and i got to do commissioning and safety testing for oxygen flowmeter. all 18 of them!! hahaha!! then it was lunch and we all went over to inland revenue building to eat and then headed back to BME center where me and vicky learnt how to use HECS (Hospital Equipment Control System) and then Ms. Kasturi taught me how to answer the phone and take down messages and how to page and all those other stuff...sigh..so much to remember and its like i have this phobia if she's not around and i have to answer the phone. hahaha!!
so far evryone is really nice and friendly!! lesley is like so jovial all the time and then ms. kasturi is like a mother to evryone there, john is interesting to listen to and talk to. haha havent really talked to evryone but yeah they're all nice people!! =D
today was kinda boring though. mainly looked through contracts and then did some HECS then searched for files...sigh...and tomorrow still have to continue searching for all those files...and there's alot man!!! its like every room in that center is a cabinet for files. hahahaha!!
kk for now its time to play a little while. just got the card for WoW but havent even registered yet. haha!! but i shall do so now then read my overdue book a while hahahah!!!! =D
so far evryone is really nice and friendly!! lesley is like so jovial all the time and then ms. kasturi is like a mother to evryone there, john is interesting to listen to and talk to. haha havent really talked to evryone but yeah they're all nice people!! =D
today was kinda boring though. mainly looked through contracts and then did some HECS then searched for files...sigh...and tomorrow still have to continue searching for all those files...and there's alot man!!! its like every room in that center is a cabinet for files. hahahaha!!
kk for now its time to play a little while. just got the card for WoW but havent even registered yet. haha!! but i shall do so now then read my overdue book a while hahahah!!!! =D
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Charlene
didn't want to write this here but then the more i think of it the more i feel that everyone shoild hear about her, how great and adorable she is. she's the cutest, most loving and most adorable creature that probably walked this earth in a long time. not fussy just cute in every way possible. she's pudgy and cute with big round eyes that are alwaz looking for food. =) she happily walks around and had such a good life that she'd just open any closed door, enter and plop down on the floor; right in front of the fan/door or under the air-con. cute right?!? =D
she'd stride up and lay down looking at you and wait for you to pet her, if you don't then she'd get up and plop her head on your lap and look at you wait then plop back on the floor, by this time your already petting her, and she'd fall asleep and go kabongz right there next to you or on your lap with her drool penatrating through your skin/pants or all over the floor.
still remember everytime i went over she'd alwaz block your bedroom door and i couldn't walk through unless i stepped over her. lolx!! then that time i was studying DE she plopped right over all my notes and drooled hahaha that was funny!! and that time we were playing magic and she opened the door; i have no idea till today how she does it though lolx; then she walked over all the cards on the floor then you said, "charlene....." then she looked back and walked over and laid right over the cards in our libraries and graveyards. hahahaha!!! and she slept!! hahaha!!!
even though i was allergic to her i still fell in love with her man, how not too?? she's just so lovable!! only a little over a year i've known her and yet i feel so much. sigh.
7:30pm
shuxin messaged me saying to pray for his doggy...i knew that she was to be put to sleep cause she was suffering but still its very different to hear it and to know its being done. honestly im not anticipating any call from him tonight.
anywaz, at least this way doggy will be happy and healthy. God will carry her and hold her close in His arms and love her abundantly!! forever!!! for eternity!! and one day all will be reunited!! and yes she's family!!!
im prayer!! and will alwaz pray for her to be happy wherever it is that she is destined to go with the Father. but i pray she's healthy and is able to accept what is to be done to her.....sigh....
Alwaz Something Better To Do
Ever notice that there's alwaz something better to do whenever there's something important that needs to be done?? like right now, im suppose to be studying but im blogging. haha!! why is that?? i mean its not that i don't wanna study its just that im losing my mood for concentrating and reading these notes and honestly this whole thing on MRI, X-Ray and Ultrasound isnt exactly going through my head. sigh. worse still first paper...sigh.... needa get those tuts and minniproject in man. life sucks.
waiting for IAP to start but then still scared hahaha!! cant play!! hopefully can enjoy though. we'll see =D
for now...STUDY!!!!!!! T.T
waiting for IAP to start but then still scared hahaha!! cant play!! hopefully can enjoy though. we'll see =D
for now...STUDY!!!!!!! T.T
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
New Colors
Like my blog colors?? hahaha actually i wanted a blue scheme bt then sigh..it didnt look that great and unfortunatly; i hate red and pink; it actually looked good so sigh..yeah decided to use it. not sure for how long exactly though.
anywaz project is over and now its exams. sigh again. but i don't worry about exams as much as project. but oh well. three papers then its all over. no more going over and hanging out at the BME center. no more finding seats and trying to decide what to eat at canteen 2. no more lunches with shy and jia ling and all. in a way im gonna miss it all but then im glad that it's attachment time. only one problem. fooL just might be and haha probably will be my LO..sigh...but what to do?? at least he's not a direct annoyance to me. hahahaha!! just hope i can get through these exams then not screw up IAP. lolx. kk CSI time!!! =D
anywaz project is over and now its exams. sigh again. but i don't worry about exams as much as project. but oh well. three papers then its all over. no more going over and hanging out at the BME center. no more finding seats and trying to decide what to eat at canteen 2. no more lunches with shy and jia ling and all. in a way im gonna miss it all but then im glad that it's attachment time. only one problem. fooL just might be and haha probably will be my LO..sigh...but what to do?? at least he's not a direct annoyance to me. hahahaha!! just hope i can get through these exams then not screw up IAP. lolx. kk CSI time!!! =D
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