HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Hahaha i know its not new year's yet but still i'm in the mood for celebration and so not DTLE report. sigh. the research is killing me i mean seriously its damn hard to find anything on blood and fluid warming equipment. sigh. nevermind must continue trying. oh yeah haven't been blogging cause i've been way too busy with everything that's piling and worse thing is human com journal was all wrong. apparently none of us answered the question, provided you can even call it a question. so now i'm like racking my brain on how in the heck am i to answer that question. hopefully the two weeks i've written so far are correct. sad man. depressing too.

at least today was half a day and i actually stayed for DTLE lecture. chee not that bad at lest i lasted for the full two hours better then jia ling who fell asleep don't know how many times. lolx!! last time mi i just couldn't help but sleep or talk, way too boring and yeah didn't learn anything. but this semester must try harder, much harder. need to pull that GPA back up there man. can't afford it, at all literally. sigh.

anywaz, don't really wanna tlak about school. kinda depressing actaully. but what to do?? haha yet again the ever famous answer!! nothing!! hahaha!! ...know what?? i've noticed that lately i've been more and more outgoing and more of a joker and guess you could say. i'm alwaz joking and laughing and trying to make everyone around me laugh too. be it with a lame joke or reply or just being plain old me. =D hehe. maybe im starting to "come outta my shell??" i don't know but im not really complaining. i mean as i look back, i never had a class of friends. class of friends!! haha! but true. as i look back at this year..even though i lost my dad and things got a little rough, i still am happy and thank God for this year He gave me and for all the people that His introduced me to and all He's placed before me for this year, people included. this year has been a good one no matter how i complain. i know what happened was in 2003 but it was the end and carried into 2004 and now it has come to an end, closure. its sad and painful and yeah i still cry but at least i know now and understand. i just hope and pray that mommy does too, and soon. not to be mean but i would like to spend time with well yeah my friends and everything but that doesn't mean i'm neglecting my family or moreover her. sigh. i hope this coming year God will open her eyes and heart to everything and have more compassion and understanding towards all the thoughts and actions of myself and my sister. im also grateful that this year me and my sis have been the closest then we have ever been in our lives, literally!! and i pray that it will continue and that are bond will grow stronger and closer and that we will alwaz be there for each other no matter what.

afterall that's happened its finally sinking in i guess. blood's thicker then water and though we may not alwaz want to admit it, and though sometimes for me it doesn't alwaz hold true, at the very end of everything it does. but now its like blood and blood-water hold true for me. =p doesn't make sense?? does to me. =D makes perfect sense actually you know why? cause im a nut-case who is understood. =p thank you!!

++==im blessed!! im loved!! ===++