Sometimes i really wonder why i bother so much. is it because im some total idiot or what?? i mean i'd so like to really know why. sometimes i really wonder what's the point. i mean its like yeah i know its exam week next week and this is study break and everything but still, am i not to study?? just don't understand people sometimes. sigh. just that right now i don't know whether i should be angry or just upset and hurt by it .... ?? not too sure...maybe im the one who just doesn't get it?? wish i knew and wasn't so baffled by it all. but then again i feel like just belting out and yelling at someone. someone who seems as though they deserve it yet don't. am i that unreasonable?? didn't think so. maybe im just too brash at times?? don't really know about that either.

just that..how busy can one be?? that is if they're even busy at all!! lolx!! maybe i should just brush everything aside, how i feel and what i think and just let it be at that. but then every other time i've done that things just get worse. sigh. so what am i to do?? just let it be once more. for some reason it seems like that's the right thing to do, even though it seems to sux so much. = (